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3,000 Miles To Tijuana

30 Oct 2023 8 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"The world in which you seek to undo the mistakes that you made is different from the world where the mistakes were made."The Counselor   The first time I OD'd, I completely lost my sense of humor.  I'll tell the story another time, but recovery was...

Will You Be My Dirty Girl?

28 Oct 2023 8 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

“A man's face is his autobiography. A woman's face is her work of fiction.”Oscar Wilde   I've been juggling the sun & moon dichotomy my whole life.  Not in an occult, mystical way.  I'm talking about hair color.  Shall I choose light, or dark?  Sun o...

The Cultural Delete

25 Oct 2023 20 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness painsMy sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,"John Keats   I just woke up from a dream in which I'd been shot in the head 9 times but survived.  My perception wasn't damaged, but my ability to relate to peopl...

Invisible Manifesto For A Rising Outlaw Nation (Take 3)

18 Oct 2023 12 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"We were interested in not being considered professionals.  I still consider myself an amateur filmmaker rather than a professional.  Because professional means you do something for money, for a job.  And the root of the word 'amateur' is a love of s...

Time Has Been Cleared For Landing

15 Oct 2023 8 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"Drop out of life with bong in handFollow the smoke...Jerusalem"Sleep   Time has been cleared for landing.  History is on its final approach.  Can you see it?  Time, and also the world and everything in it, are the only passengers on Vanishing Into T...

Ghosts of São Paulo

13 Oct 2023 10 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

I had a week to kill between the shows in São Paulo and Las Vegas, and I was out of money.  It's unlikely I would have returned to Vegas early anyway, when I was already in an exotic, faraway, and foreign place, but even if I'd have rather been in Ve...

Johnny Efectivo en Brasil

12 Oct 2023 15 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

In spite of having every technical difficulty under the sun, or perhaps the moon, the show at the Nazaré Paulista Country Music Festival in Brazil was the 2nd best of the entire Poor Man's Nick Cave Tour.  Only the show in Santiago was better.  I was...

Wet Cat in the Rain

10 Oct 2023 9 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"To convince oneself that one has the right to live decently takes time."Eva Perón   Nick Cave once said something to the effect that he chose his band members based on how well they got along.  Playing ability is secondary.  Being able to live on a...

Live in Santiago

6 Oct 2023 12 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

Five years ago tonight was the night I arrived in Santiago, Chile.  A long flight down from Mexico City, with a transfer in Bogotá.  It was a long day.  The flight left Mexico City at dawn, and the arrival in Santiago wasn't until 9 or 10pm.  I forgo...

Suicide By Holding My Breath

5 Oct 2023 6 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"The road to hell is fraught with pearl.Shiny people going down."Fraught With Pearl   This article is an afterthought to an afterthought, so I thought I'd use the title of a poem I refuse to write, "Suicide By Holding My Breath."  The gist of the poe...