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God Loves You, Will Smith

29 Mar 2022 1 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

Dear Will Smith, God loves you.  He knows you're in torment over your wife's infidelity, and He says, "IT'S OKAY."  It's okay to feel bad about it.  It's okay to have a broken heart.  It's okay to not support it, to be against it, in spite of what ev...

True Outlaws & The Devil's Surrogate Christs

25 Mar 2022 7 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"The moment you cross the little wire gate and you're in Mexico, you feel like you just sneaked out of school when you told the teacher you were sick, and she told you you could go home."  Jack Kerouac Not only do you feel like a kid who just got out...

Los Angeles To Leadville

21 Mar 2022 11 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

I was driving on I-40 in Oklahoma, headed west toward yet another destination I didn't know I was traveling to, when the line "interstate highway, psychedelic snake" came to me. The sun was high and in my face, and I opened my journal book and starte...

Saying Goodbye To The Carefree World Of Content Sluttery

19 Mar 2022 3 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

I have recently been made aware of the phenomenon of "monitoring spirits," a kind of spiritual surveillance by entities who don't have your best interests at heart.  This awareness has caused me to hesitate in posting new videos on YouTube.  Lately,...

Followers Are Creepy

13 Mar 2022 7 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

I remember something Clint Eastwood once said in an interview, expressing his distaste for people who said they wanted to be actors instead of movie stars.  He said, "if you're working, there's no difference."  It's a refreshingly working-class attit...

Licking The Fist That Feeds

2 Mar 2022 3 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

  Licking The Fist That Feeds   Is it because I’m alive that I want to take a dive off the brink of oblivion rather than living in a land where the houses built on sand and the churches built on quicksand?   From the privacy of their own cage, mecha...

In Solidarity With The Dead

28 Feb 2022 5 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

The sorrow I felt when Ashli Babbitt was killed in Washington, D.C. on January 6, 2021 was overwhelming.  I posted a video on my YT channel entitled "American Prayer," which received a fair amount of criticism.  The last time I checked, the like/disl...

Encouragement Or Enabling?

18 Feb 2022 2 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

When it comes to the arts, I'm not a believer in over-encouragement.  I'm not in favor of discouragement, necessarily, but in this era of artistic relativism in which "anything is art because I say it's art," I think it's time to stop enabling artles...

It's The Heart That Counts

11 Feb 2022 2 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

I've been attending a church here in Mexico for the last couple weeks, and find myself in complete agreement with the music they play beforehand.  Stylistically, artistically, does it do anything for me?  Not really.  But I find that, to my own surpr...

A Career of Idle Words

11 Feb 2022 14 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"Every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment."  Matthew 12:36   Less than a few weeks ago, I discovered I have a new artistic standard.  I wouldn't say it's a total replacement of whatever my hopefully...