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Lagoon of the Land of Palms

8 Aug 2023 1 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

Chott el Djerid (Arabic: شط الجريد Šoṭṭ el-Jarīd) is a large endorheic salt lake in southern Tunisia.  The name can be translated from Arabic into English as "Lagoon of the Land of Palms."  "A Portrait in Light and Heat" was filmed there by Bill Viol...

Resisting The Bum Doubts

4 Aug 2023 8 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"Hipness is death to the individual, andonly the individual is truly hip."Pablo Smog   I feel the need to add a caveat to my last article.  It's going to sound "negative," but it's only negative if it isn't true.  If it isn't true, there's nothing to...

Sparrows of Resistance

2 Aug 2023 4 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"The world changed so precipitously.  From this time forward, it was the painful theater of an animal struggled all out."AquaSixio   The muse has been colonized.  Not just my muse.  Your muse too.  Colonized.  Slaved.  Caved.  Un-braved.  De-brained....

Ode To Sinéad

27 Jul 2023 8 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"If only I can fight off the voices of my parentsand gather a sense of self-esteemThen I'll be able to REALLY sing..."Sinéad O'Connor   I hearya sister.  A buncha right bastards, aren't they.  I was at least blessed with a great mother.  Unfortunatel...

9 Years Sober

24 Jul 2023 5 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"I haven't felt this clean for a thousand years."Farewell Song Sweet From My Trees   Today marks 9 years of sobriety for me.  It hasn't been a struggle.  The only struggle is in making up your mind.  Hitting "rock bottom," perhaps.  But once you've d...

GPS Down

17 Jul 2023 4 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"Sin is the missing link."Pablo Smog   There is a silver lining to all this madness.  Every time something unbelievable happens, it is an opportunity to see the world as it really is.  Not a treasure trove of light and shallow virtue, in which powerf...

The Sleep of Reason

16 Jul 2023 4 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"The Sleep of Reason produces monsters."Francisco Goya "The Sleep of Reason produces Tik-Tok cringe compilations."Pablo Smog   Francisco Goya was the father of the modern Tik-Tok challenge.  The acts of dangerous idiocy depicted in his work predate t...

The Imagination Betrays The Mind

13 Jul 2023 6 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"The imagination betrays the mindby sabotaging it into becoming a heart"Blackbird   I wrote the song "Blackbird" in the summer of '94.  I worked at a golf course during the day as a landscaper, and smoked weed and drank beer with my brother and his f...

The Tragedy of Artificial Holiness

11 Jul 2023 5 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

“He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.”Matthew 10:39   While I'm on the topic of dying to self, of initiating divorce proceedings from the devil and hell, and not turning back, I'm going to pos...

Able To Be Horrored

8 Jul 2023 3 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"The reason Milton wrote in fetters when he wrote of Angels & God, and at liberty when he wrote of Devils & Hell, is because he was a true Poet and of the Devil's party without knowing it."William Blake   Was Lot's wife a songwriter?  Was she looking...