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The Utopia of Godly Sorrow

4 Dec 2022 8 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

The purpose of this article is not to fill people with gratuitous hopelessness, which leads to death.  It's to fill people with purposeful hopelessness, which leads to life.  Or can.  Death is always an option.  At some point, it's the only option. ...

The Drop Ceiling of Damocles

3 Dec 2022 7 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"With what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.  And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?  Or how wilt tho...

An Album of Musical Nudes

1 Dec 2022 7 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

Stupid Old Heart is my attempt at an album of nudes.  Visual artists have life drawing sessions with nude models in an attempt to capture the human form in whatever medium they happen to be working in.  So, why not music?  Is it possible to capture t...

Saying "No" To The Gateway Arts

28 Nov 2022 6 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

“What I do is between me and the Lord, to examine and possibly alter the state of grace in which I live, and thereby the state of grace of anybody who listens.”  Townes Van Zandt "There's hardly anything fun to do, since they made music illegal."  Fr...

A Foreign Country Called Home

26 Nov 2022 17 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.  For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God."  Colossians 3:2-3 "I've come back aroundto uncharted ground,or so it seems"Me   I've never been here before.  Have you?  Mayb...

Ignoring the Warning of "La Bruja"

16 Nov 2022 13 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

"'La Bruja' (The Witch) is a popular traditional song from the state of Veracruz, Mexico.  There's various tales and legends in Mexico and one of those is of La Bruja, which can perhaps be compared to the legend of the vampire 'Dracula' (made popular...

Snorkeling in the Lake of Fire

4 Nov 2022 7 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

“As he that taketh away a garment in cold weather, and as vinegar upon nitre, so is he that singeth songs to an heavy heart.” Proverbs 25:20 “And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.”  Matthew 24:12   I went scuba diving on...

John the Baptist in the Rain

2 Nov 2022 3 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

Wow the a madhouse on ice Ghostsrun like micethrough the streets of Jerome Phoenix is gone,smothered in drug-clouds My buddy is twisted, sleepingin buckets Driving is easy,like navigating a birthday Cake when you're 8 The highway is ringing; m...

El Mule

21 Oct 2022 1 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

If you're looking for an apartment in a small town in a Mexican border state, and the landlord offers you cocaine and weed, and has 4 or 5 nice cars for sale, sitting in the driveway, and flashes a stack of American hundred-dollar bills, Does that me...

Colonel Kurtz in a Van

21 Oct 2022 3 minute read 0 comments Nathan Payne

“I was perplexed as to what the usefulness of any of the arts might be, with the possible exception of interior decoration. The most positive notion I could come up with was what I call the canary-in-the-coal-mine theory of the arts. This theory argu...