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Becoming conscious as a fenix aarizing from the ashes

8 Jun 2022 18 minute read 1 comment fenix-aarizon

We must become conscious of wrongdoing before we are able to create real change in our life. Table of Contents Consciousness of choice Regarding sexuality Consciousness of fear as change Recognizing fear for what it is Saving our self from fear...

The blessing of our dreams

13 May 2022 8 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo above the clouds by Julia Joppien Our individual dream world educates us on how we are feeling in our waking life. Dreams are a blessing and I pray for those who struggle with dreams that they may be able to overcome. I pray they will be able t...

An old man and young woman - Fenix Dream Journal

13 May 2022 7 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

A blue Cadillac Imperial from Unsplash.com Stealing a woman from an old man I met this woman who had been with or married to an old man. a sense was that he was paying for her college tuition as a gift for her intimate love of him. I felt so deeply w...

A plank-walking dream

13 May 2022 6 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo of man holding onto wooden planks from Unspash.com For this post and for the first time ever - I'm using Unsplash for the thumbnail. The more I searched on Pexels.com for photos to use, the more I realized Pexels is the gucci of free images. Th...

People watching & A Mother's Day letter from Mom

9 May 2022 6 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Woman writing a letter by cottonbro from Pexels The one who sits alone, who evades church and is picky of pens. The one who will go great lengths to prove himself correct. The one who becomes comfortable with being seen. One who enjoys writing, altho...

Abstaining desire - Fenix Mind Dump

8 May 2022 10 minute read 1 comment fenix-aarizon

Photo by Myicahel Tamburini from Pexels #CringeWarning I'm not sure where I should go from here. Also, this is a Fenix Mind Dump. It's mere scribblings of my wandering mind. Proceed at your own risk. I'm not sure who I am, but I tend to like putting...

Associating the dissociative & what must change.

7 May 2022 8 minute read 2 comments fenix-aarizon

Dissociative states That feeling you get when after someone reminds you of something that feels so distant yet was a mere two days ago. It feels like the experience came from many months or years ago. What is that phenomenon? I think when I experienc...

Men over women & sadism and testing reality

2 May 2022 2 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

I feel the need to publish more and edit less - I think it's a good way to get into the flow of writing more clear & concisely. This one ended on an interesting note. This was not intended to condone or encourage causing others pain. This is a mind d...

Life is not for people like me, how about you?

1 May 2022 5 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Mathias P.R. Reding from Pexels Life is not for people like me, it seems.I've been waiting, for nothing, it seems. There's simply no end to feeling like my life is meaningless. It will always be returning. That deep, darkness lurking - the R...

What am I doing with my life?

29 Apr 2022 5 minute read 0 comments fenix-aarizon

Photo by Roberto Nickson from Pexels I think most people wonder about their own existentialism. Becoming myself I wonder when the day will be that I would be able to relax and be myself while also being able to hang out with someone who wants to be a...