Unfortunately, it has been some time since my last post, and I am disappointed in myself because I wanted this to be so much more. However, I am going to direct this away from continuing my story. I want to talk about some things that have happened to me over the past few weeks that have impacted my life negatively and positively. I want to share three things. First, the negative is that I lost a very good friend. I don't think it quite hit me hard yet, and that kinda scares me, but it has made me aware of how many people I have lost over the past few years and months to either addiction or suicide, and it makes me feel something way! I don't even know what. 

Next, some good news, I did win a nice chunk of money which is now gone, unfortunately, but in doing so, I was able to buy a nice ass car, pay off some debt and also pay off my school so I can continue getting my bachelor Degree in Psychology! WHHHOOO!! Which I am so excited about. It is taking longer than it should, but I am still going through with it instead of bailing like usual!

Now, I would like some feedback on the last part, if possible. Whether it is negative or positive, It doesn't matter. I started a new therapy for my depression since everything else I ever tried has failed me. It is an induced  Ketamine, visual, mindfulness meditation. Before participating in this, I did a lot of research and read good and bad reviews. But I am now three treatments in. The first treatment kicked my ass. I was laid out in bed for three days. Thinking shit, another failure, and wasted time and money. But I gave it another shot, and HOLY SHIT! I have never felt better in my life. I am happy. I can work through negative situations better, my thoughts are slowed down and clear, and I feel great for the first time in probably 25-plus years! I don't want to get into details unless someone is interested in them. However, if you're someone like me and have tried multiple medications that have failed or left you just feeling like you just exited, then I seriously recommend looking into it!

I'm sorry this is so short and dull, but I just wanted to sync up and write one for myself and two to let anyone who may have been following know that I didn't disappear. I will be back soon to continue my story and post updates on how the therapy is going. 

Until than,

Love, be kind, and stay strong 💪❤️ 

✌️ Out for now! ✌️❤️🙃

                                                                            Song of the day! I Got You (I Feel Good) by, James Brown