Personal documents (Created in Canva)

Love And Regret

By Wahyu Nugraha | wahyu_nugraha04 | 25 Sep 2025


On a sunny morning, where the residents of the house are busy with their respective activities, Rey is busy with preparing to go to school, her father is busy watering flowers and some chili and tomato plants, while her mother is busy cooking fried rice for breakfast.

"Son, breakfast is ready! Take your father." said mom from the kitchen.

After a few minutes Rey and his father arrived in the kitchen together, taking their seats at the dining table. The three of them had breakfast together happily. In the middle of breakfast, Rey's father said, "We will have guests on Sunday morning, my mother's old friend, we haven't seen each other for decades, it was only last month when my father and mother went on pilgrimage to meet again, you, son, if there was an event, it was postponed. ", "Yes, wait a minute, son, there's something we want to talk about later," said the mother, "Yes, father, mother, coincidentally, the event is also in the afternoon, usually playing football with friends." Rey said with a slight smile without thinking and full of suspicion.

The day passed and Sunday arrived, morning greeted Rey's family with fresh air.The clock on the wall shows half past nine in the morning, Rey and his mother and father deliberately waited on the front porch to welcome the guest, from a distance a black Avanza car appeared, "Well finally the one you've been waiting for has arrived. Son, you go inside and then the food and drinks in the kitchen were immediately brought and arranged on the living room table, yes," said mother, Rey nodded and immediately acted on her mother's orders.

The long-awaited guest has arrived. As usual, friends since childhood, haven't seen each other for a long time, in the living room, while eating while chatting wildly, just reminiscing about Rey's mother's past friendship during school and at the same time staying. Rey herself just smiled like the only daughter of Rey's mother's friend, her name was Nabila Syifa Azahra. Usually called Syifa, she is two years younger than Rey.

After eating together, Rey's mother opened the conversation, "Rey, I want to talk. Previously, this mother and friend of the mother (while rubbing her friend's knee) made a promise when we were still in school, we made a promise that we will live long and get the right child for an arranged marriage, ready to become a family, I hope you understand and I think Syifa is also very beautiful, that's fine, your household must be simple." Hearing the mother's story, Rey, who is known as an obedient child, couldn't say anything, even though her heart was very heavy, because at the school where she taught, Rey was attracted by a teacher named Mrs. Nisa Salsabila, who was actually more beautiful than Syifa. Rey was silent a thousand languages, just smiled and gave a shy impression, as well as Syifa, kept her head down. "It's good, we just let the two of them get to know each other, okay?" said Syifa's mother, "Well that's better, let's get to know each other first, so that we can understand each other more and understand," replied Rey's mother. Rey is getting more and more heavy-hearted, but what can he do and what should he do. "We totally agree, thumbs up," said Rey's father. Rey heart was getting heavier, which her father thought could be a complaint against his heart.

Days passed, turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, like the universe gave the news, ready or not, like it or not, like it or not, life will go on without much compromise with humans.

From the first meeting, Rey did not agree to accept and carry out her mother's orders, plus her father was also very supportive. Rey's communication with Syifa just like that from day to day doesn't seem to change anything, from time to time Syifa often invites to meet just to give advice to talk honestly to Rey's parents, even though Syifa herself already has the seeds of love for Rey. But on the other hand, Syifa realized and already knew that in Rey's heart there was already another woman. Not infrequently Rey's careless treatment of Syifa made Syifa cry, whether meeting or just chatting, in fact, once one evening, when Rey was ordered by her mother to take Syifa home, in the middle of the trip Rey suddenly stopped and suddenly said sarcastically, "I If you don't see mom and dad, you don't want to marry you. Even if we marry, it's not because I love you, but because I still take care of my parents' feelings." As if being stabbed by a needle, Syifa screamed in her heart, holding back the tears that were about to burst out. talk at all. At the same time, when Rey and Syifa chatted, Rey secretly often communicated with Nisa, the woman Rey really wanted.

Until one day in the dry season, Syifa fell ill, the doctor said her lung cancer was not getting better, her meningitis was also getting worse, "Does Syifa have a serious life problem, ma'am? asked the doctor, "not at all, sir, son. we are very happy, always smiling happily at us as parents," Compared to Rey, Syifa is better at acting in front of Rey's parents and their own parents, just to give the impression that their communication relationship is good and smooth.

Hearing the news of Syifa, Rey's parents were worried and often visited the hospital. Rey herself, some felt a little relieved and guilty because she thought that Rey's recent behavior had started to make Syifa sick, plus she was surprised to find out that Syifa, who had been looking fine all along, had a serious illness. But, still even though it didn't change his attitude at all, Rey looked indifferent behind the scenes. Instead, the focus is on replying to each other's chat with Nisa.

Almost a month has passed, Syifa has not been able to be brought home, she only moves treatment from one hospital to another. During that time, Rey has been messing with Nisa, Rey always loves whatever Nisa wants, whether it's time, energy. , including material. The more he falls in love, the more Rey is infatuated with a woman who is believed to love him back. However, all these feelings changed, when one day, in the evening before sunset, when Rey came home to pick up her mother from the hospital, in the middle of the trip, Rey saw Nisa walking alone with other men, hugging each other, feeding each other ice cream. So far, Rey doesn't know that behind her back, Nisa has been in a relationship with a rich man named skipper Andi, the brother of Rey's co-star.

Arriving at the house, Rey entered the room and then contacted Nisa to ask for an explanation of what Rey witnessed earlier, the phone was not picked up, the message was sent unanswered, only read, until finally she replied with a message, "Can you be patient? Who are you? ? I haven't had a relationship yet, after all, I have never started contacting you either by chat or by telephone, I have never asked for this and that, everything you gave was because you were the one who offered, didn't accept and felt that you had to be returned? How many hundred thousand will you lose? I'll return the money." Reading such a message, Rey was even more devastated, feeling unable to believe the reality that had happened to her, the woman she loved so much actually hurt her, while Syifa, a woman who loved Rey so many times, was hurt by her attitude during communication.

Rey is on the verge of a chaotic feeling, in his mind he imagines the figures of Nisa and Syifa, remembers the first time he met Syifa, recalls how Syifa's attitude in dealing with Rey's attitude was super indifferent and sometimes painful, until the eyes of a heart that were closed in love were opened. , the light of consciousness began to give messages through tears, he re-opened his old messages with Syifa, he cried more and more until the crying stopped because his mother's hysterical screams heard that Syifa had died.

Without thinking, Rey and her parents returned to the hospital to see the body that was now lying stiff, wrapped in white cloth without pockets, without colors, without carrying any money, Syifa's pale face, now lifeless, was getting sicker. and hit by Rey's heart, she cried non-stop until the morning, until the late Syifa was buried, a woman who often hurt Rey, a woman who was patient and full of manners in dealing with men like Rey herself. Until finally, never mind, now a Syifa can no longer be seen by the eye, can no longer be present as a person who is often scolded because of Rey's annoyance, everything has happened and will not return. Except the memories that will accompany.


 

How do you rate this article?

1


Wahyu Nugraha
Wahyu Nugraha

I am an educator who loves books, reading, writing and painting.


wahyu_nugraha04
wahyu_nugraha04

A collection of essays, short stories and serials

Send a $0.01 microtip in crypto to the author, and earn yourself as you read!

20% to author / 80% to me.
We pay the tips from our rewards pool.