Hi Everyone! 
Good Morning <3 I seriously can't believe as I'm writing this we are less than an hour away from Christmas Eve. I still have so much to do. This year in general has passed by so quickly. My brain is still stuck in 2020. I wouldn't be surprised if that's when the world ended and now we are all in some kind of simulation that being why everyone still can't get over 2020 lol. Who knows. But this year has been a very hard one. One of the hardest years my family has gone through in a very long time. For myself, it's been a huge struggle. Just the past six weeks have put me through literal hell. 
Today was a day for sure! 
If you've been following along, which if you have thank you so much I truly appreciate having you here <3, you'll know that I've been going through troubles with my job. After a traumatic event that put myself and another co-worker in danger at work they decided to go through with an investigation. Yet I was the only one they put on leave during this situation. Which I believe honestly has a lot to do with Nepotism due to the other co-worker being the partner of our HR directors child. So... It's just me sitting here waiting to find out if I still have a job. When in all honesty it shouldn't even be a debate in the first place. What happened was hell, what happened was scary and it wasn't anyone's fault. We did our jobs. Yet here we are. 
This investigation has been going on for over a month now and none of it has been handled legally, ethically or properly in any sense. My rights have been violated and laws have been broken. But all I want is to simply return to doing what I love doing, which is helping people. 
Yesterday was my interview. They finally interviewed me. After they had already finalized the investigation! Yes, they finalized the investigation before even talking to me. Which should have been step numero uno. 
The interview itself felt very odd to me, it felt like they were fishing. Only to find out that they're now going on vacation!!! And I'll have to wait for their decision on January 6th! I've already been waiting since before Thanksgiving. This is getting seriously ridiculous because legally they only have two weeks. 
I didn't want to have to contact an attorney. But at this point I will be contacting an attorney after the holidays because it's time that I stand up for myself. 
Other than my interview yesterday, I did get up to some other things. Of course my standard side hustle morning routine. Must keep up the grind. I never give up even when the going gets tough. 
I woke up with a really bad headache and I was hoping by taking my Migraine medicine it would go away, but I do have chronic migraines and sometimes even my daily medicine I take can't keep them away. I wound up getting sick for about an hour because my head hurt so bad right before my interview. 
I spent some time with the pugs when I first woke up. I brought them into my room because it was warmer in here. We were going through a winter storm the wind was insane! The towns surrounding us had lost power, luckily our power only went out for a couple of minutes then it came back on. Other than some lights flickering throughout the night and day we maintained power. The wind is much calmer now. But temperatures are still below freezing with quite a lot of snow. Everything is covered in ice. My Dad even fell down the stairs on his way to work. The weather has just been a bit of a nightmare. 
My partner Dammie woke up early which was really nice. We spent the day talking. He spent his day hanging out with friends playing pool. Him and his big Leo ego got really cocky lol!
I watched a lot of skincare videos as I was stuck in bed yesterday. My health has not been doing very well. So I've simply just been keeping myself entertained and trying to keep myself going. Listened to music, watched TikTok and tried to just outlast the storm. I couldn't go for a walk today due to the weather. So it was a stuck at home kind of day. Grateful we had power though. 
I called my Mamma a couple of times. The hell show that is my family is just ridiculous. At this point do I seriously expect anything less from them? They just can't help themselves but to lie, stir up drama, cause people pain and make people suffer. They truly suck and I hope when one day when this is all over with that I never speak to them again. Because I truly want nothing to do with any of them. 
It breaks my heart to see my Mamma in so much pain. To see her struggling so bad. She has no one to help her. Everyone lets her down, walks all over her and expects her to pick up all the pieces. It's disgusting. 
After talking to my Mamma after my interview I did my immune suppressant injection and headed to bed. I truly didn't feel well after that. Usually for a few days after my injection I'm quite the zombie. But I seem to be tolerating it a bit better as time goes on and I am up today. Though I did get up late. Though I think that has more to do with my brother knocking and scratching at my door while I was trying to sleep being creepy as all HELL!! 
I went and answered the door, he wanted two things. One, a tape measure. Two, he said Merry Christmas him and his wife Hailee had got me something. Which I thought was very sweet. My brother can never wait until Christmas to give people their presents I find it kind of funny. So I woke up in the middle of sleeping to my weird brother demanding a tape measure that I didn't have but I was supposed to have oddly enough. And a present which was nice. 
Spent some time with him and Hailee. Before heading back to bed because I didn't feel well. 
So It was a day. A day for sure. I was really sick. It was filled with drama and stress. I honestly cannot say yesterday was a good day. Now I'm stuck waiting until January 6th now which is really upsetting. I'm hoping today and this holiday weekend will be better and I'll be able to share some positive stories with you all. 
Any advice I have for you today is it's time to stand up for yourself. If there's a situation where you're letting people walk all over you or you're being quiet. Don't, stand up for yourself. Because YOU deserve it! It's time to fight for yourself! And I will be taking my own advice on this one. Because I'm so done letting people treat me like garbage and take their time while I sit and suffer. It's time to tell people no and enough is enough. Go forward today with your head held high. 
Happy Holidays Everyone!! Know you're loved <3

- Salem