I'm going to start out with what I've done and then get into how I feel.

This morning I got up way too early. I did this on purpose though. I wanted to get in some grocery shopping then "watch" the LPL on YT. The plan was to go to Kroger for Soup and Ham then go to Walmart to do the rest of the grocery shopping. I was able to leave shortly after taking my daily Thyroid pill at 6am.

Upon arriving at Kroger, I got out of the car and went to the door to find out they don't open until 7. Therefore, I did my Walmart shopping first. The bulk of the list was for Walmart and it took some time to get it all done. When I finished doing the self-checkout, I took my items and put them in the trunk of the car and drove to Kroger. Inside Kroger I didn't find the Ham that was on sale. With the being the case, I just bought 10 cans of Progresso Soup. It should last me quite some time as I tend to do soup 2 or 3 times a week. I got home, put the groceries away. Made some toast to go with my Coke Zero Sugar and put the LPL on YT on my 2nd monitor. 

Later today(Saturday) I hope to get a video made for Valheim and to get ready to do an FM23 video on Sunday. I will also play some Phobies. I do need to decide if I'm going to buy Wylde Flowers or hope it goes on sale. I streamed the Demo and put it on YT

I really enjoyed the demo and was a bit sad to finish it.

Most of the previous week was spent either streaming or making YT videos. I don't edit my stuff for YT. Not sure if I'm going to learn how to do it or if I'm going to continue recording stuff as I do it. The plan right now is to just record stuff as I do it. 

I did start over again in Valheim as I was stubbornly stupid and got killed twice in succession in a bad place where I couldn't retrieve my corpse. Also, got fired in FM23 so now I'm going to be playing as Dover Athletic. I'm taking things much slower in FM this time around. Hopefully I make it more than 1+ seasons.

As far as how I feel, I'm good 90% or more of the time. I do tend to tear up every now and then. It happens mostly when I think about how Mom was in the last few weeks of her life. She was my rock. She was more concerned with me than she was with herself. Whenever she saw me crying she would tell me to "dry it up". I did my best to make it easier on her. The 3 cancers were just too much for her.

In early 2020 I had a stroke. I have had my Thyroid removed. I have had my Gall Bladder removed. It was after the Gall Bladder surgery that I became more "wobbly". When I'm up and moving around, I'm not steady on my feet. In the shower, I sit in a shower chair to wash my feet. If someone were to spy on my in the house, they would see me touching walls or tables to steady myself. When I do tear up thinking about Mom I sometimes think some of the tears are me feeling sorry for myself. I'm good seated. Therefore, I don't have a problem so far being at the computer or watching TV or driving.

I don't like to feel or show weakness. That is a bit harder to do lately. 

I don't play LoL but I do really enjoy watching the pros play. Like I've said before, I have the LPL on the 2nd monitor and I plan to watch the LCK, the LEC, the LCS and I might watch the LCK Challengers. Basically if there is an English broadcast, I'm watching it. 

Thanks for reading this far if you have. No pointless images. No pointless links. No crypto talk either. Just me being as real as I can be.