I hope my mom doesn't read this . Ah because I'm not a virgin, but i think she knows that already.

Everyone is a slave to something.

I don't even know what I was going to write about but arguably my favorite YouTuber made a video saying a slave to validation. I link the video.

Main point was , he was referring to PUA want to have success with woman not because they are horny but just to have success, válidate their ego."they are worried about perceiving in their mind as failures with women." He also said that most of us had and inferiority complex in highschool to "Chads" who had tonnes of sex. 

He's right . I already knew this to some extent.i was before i had sex for the first obsessed with getting laid, my first time afterwards" i remember thinking "huh is that it" . And even though I had sex with other women and the feeling is good, it's the validation i get that way more ego fulfilling.i mean i could jerk off and still feel pleasure almost the same but i feel shit afterwards because it's not validation.like i know it's ego driven and I want to sleep with hundreds of girls ,and even though I read memoirs of guys with high body count say it not fulfilling i am like still driven by ego.

Anyways how does this relate to me and everyone.

I want to be financially well off, even though i thought about it many times and non of the perks like fancy cars , watches ,house don't really mean much, i fear that ego is going to make me buy them. I mean i could live a normal Life but i fear that if my ego is not involved i wouldn't try so hard.

If it wasn't for my ego i would not try so hard at getting better with socializing.

If it wasn't for my ego i wouldn't get up and try to make a bunch of money.

If it wasn't for my ego i wouldn't try to keep in shape all the time.

I feel like if it wasn't for our ego to do stuff most of us would not get out of bed.

Andrew Tate said this. People say " my life is so shit because I'm depressed" but he said" no you are depressed because your life is so shit."

Anyways i don't even know if what I say making any sense.this quote i heard somewhere says. "Don't feed stray dogs" why? "Because they are never satiated,".