Sinking into sadness is the worst thing, to escape it, I resorted to writing as usual, to externalize my sorrows through words, it's, indeed, an effective way to relieve my sufferings.

Every soul will taste death. 

I was always writing for fun and with passion, but this time is different for the reason behind my writing is too painful to the extent to curse the words scribbled through my pen, and to feel a twinge of conscience because of my anger against death. I have a great faith in my God the Merciful, yet I can't bear my loss he decreed, it's beyond my control and capacity. I have pity for my beloved mother because losing a son, the elder one, is so painful and grievous. It's not easy for any mother to lose one of her kids but this is life and this is the destiny that we cannot control or even refuse.

If we say that death is an abhorrent guest, it is because it does not knock on the door, but sneaks in secretly without warning or giving a hint , without a reason to snatch a soul that we did not imagine would leave us so quickly and suddenly . We all fear death not because we will leave this life, but especially because we fear losing our loved ones.

Death is a heavy guest on the heart because it comes with the intention of depriving us of the people we love and we can't imagine life without them. Although it is a right, it remains an unjust right in our view as long as it deprives us of our loved ones and causes us pain and sadness.

A lot of time has passed and I have not written, not for lack of topics, but because of the grief caused by the death of my dear brother Hassan. Yes, I lost my beloved elder brother, dearest among my brothers, and close to my heart. I accept death not willingly but should accept it since it's mandatory , however, this loss affected me deeply. I feel empty, as if life is no longer worth anything  neither worth running after with all passion and greed.

My brother Hassan woke up in the morning , had his  breakfast, and then went to work like every day. At noon, news came to us that something bad had happened to him and that he had fainted in his office. They helped him, but he died on his way to the hospital. I cannot describe my feeling when I heard the news. I still cannot believe that he actually died. How can a person be in good health, who does not smoke, does not drink, does not harm anyone, is a friend to everyone, generous, his kindness is known for everyone, according to the testimony of his friends in the pétanque club, his colleagues at work, and his family. Unbelievable but true fact unfortunately. 

It is the sudden death that has spread recently, especially during the period after Corona. Every day we hear of someone dying abruptly without a reason. Some say because of the vaccines that caused much damage for thousands of people. Maybe true, maybe not, but of course death does not need a reason, it is fate and destiny. We are all destined to die since we were engendered  in our mothers' wombs.

Death is just a passage from the mortal life of this world to eternal life. The fear of death is a living instinct that has nothing wrong with it. The only shame is that this fear overcomes us and we don't overcome it.

Therefore, we need to arm us with faith and patience to face life as well as death, we must keep in mind that life is fleeting and that no one will remain by our side throughout our lives. It is fate and God’s will, and no one has the power to change fate, neither can object to the decreed destiny .

At last, I want to rip all the dead people including my brother, I believe that the good and the kind ones repose peacefully in paradise. I wish patience and solace to everyone who has lost a loved one. May their souls rest in peace and may God have mercy on our souls with beautiful patience to relieve our pains. 

Thanks for taking the time to read.