I went to sleep and had an episode of sleep paralysis. It’s been 2 months since it last happened and 6 months before that experience. I see a shadow figure hover over me with its hand near my head from about my body length away from me. I hear multiple voices. Their conversation doesn't sound like a human language it sounded like frequency mixed with cackling. Despite it sounding like nonsense, I felt like I could understand them. It felt like they were mocking me. They were talking amongst each other saying that I will be deceived by what I will see next and that I am foolish enough to believe what I will see next.
I woke up into another dream and I am driving down this winding road listening to music I look to my right and I am alone. It leads to a familiar route I take home from work. It's a smooth left turn going up a hill, a soft right turn going down hill, then a straight on flat, level land. The song on the radio has this song that has the melody of What A Beautiful Name It Is. It sounded amazing, otherworldly. It sounded like one singer, but I could tell there were many singing like a choir as they were singing in such perfect unison. This was at a time that I thought Christian music was one of the lamest genres of music. I paid no attention to it - thinking it was another song on the Christian radio station. I turn to my right and I see my girlfriend at the time. I look ahead. The song took more of my attention. In the song, there were different qualities, traits, and emotions that were sung like
“...........calmness
Happiness is more important than stress
Love is more than happiness
Love is more important that sex”
The last line caught my attention because I was thinking why in the world would they play this on THE Christian radio station!?
BUT
I have this aha moment. It gets me in my heart. I feel this overwhelming sensation pour in. The last 3 lines repeat 3 more times after it catches my attention but the last line is the loudest. Right after I realized that these lines have meaning and are speaking to me, I turn to my right to talk to my girlfriend about what was on the radio and the revelation I just had. No one is beside me. It's just me in the car. I noticed the car has stopped and I am at an intersection. I see that the road is empty. I am transported out of the car onto the right side of it on the street. The car is now outside of my peripheral vision. I look at the sky and its color changes into deep, rich bronze then changes into a dark purple sky like the nightfall. Dark clouds formed with some lightning crackling all over the sky. Then, a large focal point of light became white in the center of my vision from the sky. A large dark brown rectangle comes out of the sky sideways coming closer to me and it makes this noise like this grand, big door is opening. After I recognized its shape, clouds formed in front of the rectangle in the form of the face of Jesus. It was like all the depictions I have seen of him, but it was different from them and his face was familiar to me like I knew what he looked like despite never seeing him. It came closer in the same manner as the brown rectangle and I felt so frightened but my instincts told me to stand tall with my hands partially supinated laying by my hips. I hear a deep breathe inhale, then I hear a deep breathe exhale. I don't feel anything, but in the time it should have hit me, I see just an intense white light then pitch black.
I woke up. I had sleep paralysis within my dream but I had control and could keep waking up into other layers of dreams until I was up in sleep paralysis and recognized I was in my bed. All these apparitions were at bay from what seems to be an invisible line across me. (I've only seen between 1 to 4 at most in the past. This time I saw a whole legion of them in the room) At this point I desperately wanted to wake up and ask if what I had seen was real and what it meant (the road and and sky part of my dream) or if it was something trying to deceive me because it was too much for me to handle and because of what the apparitions said.)
I woke up into a dream that had technology that could detect what was happening. It was connected to the dreams where everything was chaotic. The series of nightmares came 2 hours in the dream world and the good one (sky part) came 45 minutes ago and you had to refresh your feed on this camera/screen to verify it. (In real time it was between 3:30 am and 4:00 am the other series of dreams came at 5:00 am.) It was taking forever because it got hacked? (This part of the dream was blurry to me) As soon as I see the the details, I wake up in another dream.
I am in this empty white room the seems to not have any end or boundary. I am sitting down on a black couch. A figure comes from behind me. He looks innocent and wise. He has same general features as the cloud but slightly different features and older. White long beard, and white glistening robe. He had a stern look on face, almost disturbed. He grabbed me by my right shoulder. He told me to stand up (it felt like an order.) It felt like he was grabbing me near the base of my neck with two hands, but he only had one hand on my right shoulder which was far from my neck. He proceeded to ask me “who is Jesus to you?” As he said this, I had this gut feeling in my stomach and heart that this person has something different about them. I felt something was definitely off as the way he asked that question was completely condescending. I don’t know why but I just yelled at the top of my lungs who he is to me. Usually whenever I yell, my voice cracks terribly. This time it didn't. It’s crisp and clear. It felt like I was roaring with some form of authority.
“Jesus is my master
He is my teacher (I forgot some of what was said in between but I remember moments in my life flashing in front of me almost as if it were being projected)
He is the King of kings
He is the Lord of lords
He is the Messiah
He is the one true God
He is my God
AMEN”
He looks disturbed and walked away. I felt an aura of anger as he left. He said nothing and I went through a series of dreams that felt like different nightmares almost like different apocalypses with different people. Some who I felt I knew but never met in real life, some family, some people I felt like I never knew and barely met in the dream. Like me, they were trying to survive.
We went through different environments and different catacombs. I lead them towards a frantic road. A road abandoned void of people but littered with crashed and flipped cars, decayed cars, and grey, dim clouds. I see an object hail down and strike someone and I wake up. I see a herd of ravenous creatures (like the apparitions I saw lined up in my room) swarm and they pierce people from their backs and I see purple light/liquid with the consistency like lava emit from their wounds and they run off with it. (This happened in buildings, bridges, public plazas, playgrounds. All these places looked like they were barely retaining their form.) I started to run and hide for self preservation. I find a building that the creatures seem to not detect and can't enter (There was a part before this I vaguely remember where I was with a group of people we were in a building like mentioned above. Someone let the creatures in to devour us but I managed to survive and flee.) I hide but something in me decides to sneak around to save the remaining people. I jump out of a series of windows and tight spaces. Hiding to not get caught. I find a remaining few people unscathed. I lead them into the building the apparitions cannot enter. The building looked like it was in ruin but I remember it feeling like a stronghold despite its appearance. I let everyone run ahead of me and I am behind them. I wake up when one of them gets me before I am the last to enter.
I wake up into another dream. I enter this dark catacomb. I navigate through it like a maze. I find my destination fairly quickly. I enter a pitch black room. I see this green orb with thorns and its light is fluttering emitting this intense light in this pitch black room and it changes between purple and green. It partially lights up the room. I am entranced by what I see. The walls seem to have no exit. My focus was entirely on this orb about the size of my fist, I’m highly curious of the orb and want it all to myself. I come closer to touch it and this hideously faced, extremely aged man with a scaly faced pops up to the right of the orb. He had a black hood and crimson red trim. I back away completely into a door behind me as I am startled. The weird thing was the door I came into felt like it disappeared when I set my eyes on the orb. Everything is black. I wake up and that's where the dream ends.
The weird thing about this dream was that I remembered everything with greater detail after recalling certain moments. I was very confused by the dream. It is the most vivid dream I have ever experienced. In the past, I've had sleep paralysis and felt attacks where the pain seemed to linger within 5 minutes of waking up. I've had lucid dreams where I could command palaces from sand, fly, shoot out fire and electricity, and halt anything I wanted. Even though both types of dreams felt real, I could still distinguish dream from reality despite taking some effort to discern. This one felt like the line between dream and reality was too blurred. To me, it felt like it was one as if I never slept. The next day, I had plenty of energy.