Lockdown has been unhealthy for me, literally.

I started feeling the pain on my hip joints after few days into lockdown. At first I thought it was because of some sleeping position gone wrong. I took the pain for a while as much as I could take it. Then I visited hospitals where they asked me to take xrays, blood tests and uric acid tests. Test reports were normal. They thought it was muscle spasm so did some exercises yet no results. Took painkillers, had relief till I took the meds. Meds completed it’s task and the pain began doing its again.

Been to traditional healers too. The pain was gradually decreasing. Then I stopped visiting the healer and pain started running its course again.

Four months and still no progress. Went to physio and two days into doing exercises, my body is submitting to pain again.

This pain is excruciating and unforgiving. The pain started from hip joints and run down till knees. The knees especially make it hard to walk. It becomes so heavy as if someone put stones on them and asked me to walk. And the pinching pain that pokes with every step I take.

I cannot walk

I cannot sleep properly

I cannot lay down on bed

I cannot stand or sit

without the episodes of my muscles crying  out for help.

And instead of tears, I burst out in laughter. This pain smiles at my misery and m joining the party too.