Search until the search becomes exhausting.

There will come a time when you are so fed up with lack of engagement that something... will shift.

There is no "rush"… until there is.

The rush that comes is not an excitement or a hopeful new-years-resolution-kind-of-rush but one that creates an inexplicable kind of focus, a flow, a complete immersion.

Something deep ignites… it is incredibly subtle yet powerful, and consumes you whole.

YOU

Something within YOU that has been relentlessly subdued until this “nagging feeling” becomes impossible to ignore. You will literally have no choice but to Act.

If these words from ME - find a home in YOU there will be nothing you can intellectually DO to launch into "the rush"…

It may come, or it may not.

I write these words because that feeling in me has been brewing up a storm for years and now I MUST write.

SO - Why all the searching? Why the dissatisfaction?

The answer is simply and not so simply - the MIND.

The mind is a wild stallion - to tame her is no walk in the park… in fact it is possible that you have never TRULY enjoyed a walk in the park. Due precisely to the fact that the stallion kept bucking at this memory, that thought, this feeling, that anxiety, this chore… and much more.

All the while the park is serene

and you are not.

Is may even be possible that this stallion is ALWAYS redirecting this way and that so that you practically exist with an unconscious pseudo-migraine 24/7. I am willing to bet that the discomfort composes a large chunk of your existence at any rate.

If not. Good for you. Continue your blissful existence in peace.

If so… I feel you.

Some news for you - if you’ve ended up here - and are reading this musing on "The Search" there must be some level of sincerity within you to understand what’s “wrong”.

You may have heard this before but at some point it will sink in deeper than it has before.

There is nothing “wrong”

As a human being - the feelings that you experience are very much a part of the common human existence at differing degrees. Fatigue, hopelessness, dread, energized, excited, eager… and every other word we’ve come up with for our limitless feelings. These thoughts, feelings, emotions and reactions all arise from the Mind.

YOU are none of these things.

Begin… wherever you are now.

Find out really, Where are you now?

Not where you want to be - but where you are NOW, see it, feel it, breathe it.

That is enough. Or it isn’t… and if that’s the case… then not being enough is still where you are NOW.

There is a plethora of ways to alleviate or enhance certain feelings… all of which are temporary - highs to lows. Tidal techniques.

Try them all if you so desire. You might just be able to keep up the charade.

There is ONLY ONE WAY to uproot these feelings completely.

I can tell you how it manifests in my life but it will do nothing for you because the

ONE WAY

is

YOUR WAY

- not mine, or his, or hers, or theirs, and it is not found in anything you’ve read or heard (including this).

It is not found in a book, it must be found in your heart.

It must bloom from within.

In other words,

there is no rush… unit there is.

Where are you NOW?