Impressionable Experiences

Seeking The Inner Spirit

"The Decision"

2005

I wish to be naive again,

to feel the bliss of youth's pretend.

The world was once beautiful,

and it's goodness an endless view.

No obstacles existed,

only dreams.

Why are you so sad today?

My life is over,

I'm done,

I've given up.

Do you remember?

You used to run about your life.

You enjoyed the adventure of it all.

Deep down you know,

you still have dreams to fulfill,

a legacy to build.

I always thought,

that I would one day accomplish,

something fantastic.

I thought that I could show them.

That was the wrong motivation.

It's okay,

you know this now.

The denial is over.

What does that mean?

You can still have your life,

you can still have your dream.

Believe in yourself.

You make me sick Serenity,

with all of your crap.

Don't listen to this poet,

black and white are a farce.

Everyone is false.

You speak the truth,

all is lost.

Chaos is your only obstacle now.

If you let go,

you will succeed.

Goodness will never succeed,

The world is more than weeds.

This for me,

is the hardest fall,

the biggest disappointment of all.

Why did you take it away from me?

Let me give you a piece of advice,

do unto them,

before they do unto you.

Now that I am confronting all of this,

what does that mean?

Should I just fall into the pit?

Remember,

you were a force unstoppable by time.

Not even the thought of gold,

could bind you.

You've been robbed of it all.

You've become blind.

All I see is blindness,

no joy, no glee,

It all looks so ugly to me.

Personal standards are a moot point.

You are surrounded by a world of,

nothingness, of empty shells.

All I can do is survive.

I'll never be free.

The world will get you in the end,

No matter what I do,

it always does.

despite what I accrue.

There is only one choice left,

for you.

For me to move through,

I have to kill you.