My very 1st memory probably imprinted on me more than any other memory in my life. Don'y get me wrong I had other memories before this  one but they weren't as clear and were kind of repressed until much later in life, i'll get into that in another story. But this story will give one a sense of where I am coming from in the 1st place. This story comprised a series of smaller recovered memories that lead up to the one that really impacted me and the one I can so vividly remember even to this day. This series of memories starts somewhere before my second birthday with a recovered memory that I had thought was a dream until I saw the persons photo later in my life, you see I was adopted and I'll never get into how I found out because that's a personal story I just wont share, even though it was one of my formative and formidable memories.

 Ok, stage set I remember looking up from a crib very uncomfortable and feeling lost but not knowing what really was going on as I had eye problems that were as yet not evident but present.This person I remember was singing some song to me and comforting me she was a young girl about 4 or 5 years older than me and while she was singing I heard a young boy speak to her, many years later I found out this was my half brother and sister, my sister was consoling me as we were removed from our mother not long before. My very next memory that didn't surface was of a goose that like to chase me in the pen they were in and peck at my eyes why and how i got there i don't remember but I remember I was terrified of that huge noisy bird and I know it happened repeatedly because I get a chill to this day from geese,  but I however am an animal lover because my adopted family and love geese anyways and think they are just a pretty bird (I do however keep my distance).Now my third memory is when my life started to get happy for a time because I remember being in the vegetable patch at the foster home when I met my now family. 

 My next memory was one of my fondest in my life and has impacted me forever. My potential new parents took me home to see if it would work and when we walked through the door I saw the ugliest green piano with real ivory keys, at the time of manufacture this color was all the rage I guess. I had never ever seen an instrument in my life no less such a huge thing as a piano I was almost 3 now so I was just a little taller than the stool and had to reach way above my head but I walked up and touched a key and my heart lit up with glee at the sound. I felt every nerve in my body jump with delight, I then proceeded to pull myself up onto the bench as my new parents watched with my new older brother and started to plunk out melodies naturally, very simple one's mind you and very clumsily as I had such tiny little hands. By the time I was 5 they had exposed me to over 7 instruments. Piano,ukulele, auto harp, jew harp, bells (chimes),and recorder. My heart had been set by that 1st memory that piano and those notes. here's the neat catch because I have eye problems sound is my life, but I didn't know it until that moment and my parents never knew how much that impacted me until I started writing and producing my own music. 

 But there was a catch to that also because my nest memory that touches on this subject was when I was about 8 or 9 and in choir plus still playing piano and getting lessons and my mom looked at me and said "Bill if you ever do anything with your life promise me you'll do something with music". Those words dropped off during my rebellious years which I will cover later but then rang true again in my late 20's.

 I was at the store looking for some new games to play and was very ill at the time actually on my death bed which also will be covered later, but I have to touch on it here as it pertains to the story. I had hepatitis C before there was a cure, and I was really jaundiced and my liver was failing, being so sick I can remember listening to music but I had now found MTV music generator "a tiny workstation for music" on PlayStation one  go figure. I had used a music workstation in University at a young age again another story so I was familiar with the guts already and I found for what it was when you wrote note by note it could accommodate a pretty complicated piece for its memory size so I bought a cd recorder and proceeded to make crude recordings which continued through the PS2 with multiple other DAW's going into digital recordings through optical input into the cd recorder in surround sound even.

 This continued for some years until these methods broke so I saved up and piece by ever loving piece I bought my current rig and built it then installed the os and proceeded to download a bunch of free workstations and use online workstations or DAW's (digital audio workstation) to write and purpose my music for peoples listening pleasure. Over the years I have branded myself as QUE 1st but someone took my name and published 1st so I renamed myself and my whole QUE MASTERY CATALOG HAD TO BE DITCHED OR REWORKED WITH MY NEW NAME AS I DIGITALLY TAGGED THEM ON MY CD RECORDER GRRRRRRRRR. So I had to come up with a name and I rolled some around for years some I found were taken by other musicians or bands already so I waited but still wrote..name name I had to find a name, well I became a massage therapist and QI GONG teacher so I named myself QI-BALL just like we form. It also represents the energy and love of music I innately have and was nurtured by my adoptive parents, who were observant enough to realize sound played a huge role in my life and encouraged me to do whatever I set my mind to.

 The significant part of this story morally and socially is to nurture your children's gifts don't try to mold them but let them blossom. Instruct them in discipline and also teach them to love and enjoy life. My parents made a huge impact on my moral, ethical and choices of enjoyment , real enjoyment not foolish teenager stuff but enriching things such as the arts.Teach them that they are capable of amazing things if they set their minds to it because they really are. I am a success not because I'm rich (i'm not) far from it. I a success because my parents taught me the important things in life such as balance and hard work hard play, also to not destroy myself in the process (even though I tried several times another cple stories horrors actually for later).

  So nurture your children's positive nature be strict but in love, take time to listen and watch their behavior and reactions as what you nurture will form the human they will become in part, and sometimes as the comment "do something with music" did me. It inspired me to build my own studio make my own label and release through my own publishing companies, 3 of which have ripped me off and not payed my royalties to date,that's not the point regardless of my other jobs or career I have and will always love and now record music or at least be writing and playing for my own pleasure. They support me so much that my current keyboard was given to me by my Dad and it's the best and most used gift I've ever had because it brings me so much joy and because my Dad also plays piano for enjoyment and he inspired me so it's cool my keyboard was given to me by him as every-time I play just like that old green piano I play it I think of him and what my Mom said and smile. 

 You affect young people around you profoundly even if their not yours, we all do. We need to encourage our young with a loving but firm hand so they reach their potential yet remain ethically and morally intact. We also need to understands that even with the best parenting things happen and they also can profoundly affect the perceptual set of our young, all we can do is properly prepare them encourage and love them and hope in the end they listen and choose the good path.

 In today's society this is more important that ever as we are tied to digital devices and kids get hazed even there so it complicates this social  structure and bond between parents and child, one can only hope that their kids find a way in this age to be creative and not a cog in the machine only as some would say, but no matter what have part of their life that is balanced enriched and brings them joy if not also others at the same time.They need to understand that actual face to face contact is as important and sometimes more important than digital friends. Both are important in today's social environment but I for one am becoming concerned with the social detachment from real people to paying more attention to a phone or electronic device and it's not just younger people I am seeing this in, and it's causing a kind off loss of individuality on a scale I've never seen because the peer pressure is larger than ever, so as a parent what you imprint on your children is more important that ever.

Peace, love and hamburgers especially hamburgers mmmmmmm.