If you are anything like me then you have a head swirling full of thoughts. Good, bad, sometimes genius, sometimes ridiculous but always a constant narrative going on behind the scenes. I've often been told that I am very closed off and few people get to know me which is fair enough. Not from any lack of confidence but more from a liking to keep my ideas to myself. When your in, your in and will hear all of it but until then I tend to keep a lot of it beneath the surface. I think a lot of it comes from growing up in Ireland where emotions and outspokenness were always frowned upon at the time.

I think most people have seen the quote before about the duck floating calmly on the surface but underneath it's all activity. That's what my mind feels like at all times. I've always been told how calm I am in any situation and how great I am when there is an emergency. In my job it's fast paced and there is always something new on the shift. You can't prepare for some of the incidents that have happened there so you have to be able to react instead. I'm good in those situations and react calmly and carefully but in my head there are a thousand thoughts going on. Every possible scenario that could happen next and what way I want to play it.

I find writing a therapy for thought. Things that you can't or won't say in company but that you can put down into words and make sense of them anyway. Somethings that nobody would want to hear but that you need to say. When it's written down you can review it and think about it. Look at it and change it. If somebody want's to take the time to read it and give feedback even better. If nobody cares it doesn't matter as it was for you in the first place.

I've had so much stuff over the years that ran through my head for weeks.

Ideas for businesses.
Ideas for books.
Ways to fix the country.
Ways to fix myself.
Ways to get rich.
Plans for when I win the lotto an have become rich.
World domination,
The usual stuff i presume.

My mind is a constant hive of though and ideas that need structure and the best way to do it is with written words. It's a therapy in itself whether you write to pass the time or write to pay the bills. You might have a story in your head that people should hear or have some plans that need to be put in order.

I know in my case, when I get started and the words start flowing that the best way forward is just to let them out and see where it takes me. Watch the paragraphs form and organize them afterwards. I do have half a novel written when I had a lot more free time in my life and something that I will get back to when I have the time and focus to fall into it properly again. At the time I had plenty time between courses and lived in a strange city so it was easy to get lost in the writing. Chapters fell from my mind with no need for planning or preparation. They were just words that needed to be put on paper.

I think that everybody should make the time every so often to get it all out of your head. Whether you post it for anybody else to see or keep it for yourself. There is a joy to watching something take shape without interruption. Just your thoughts and ideas put forward for interpretation.

I might never win the lotto and probably won't achieve world domination but it's great to have an outlet for everything else. Who knows about the other parts and I would love to try and fix the country at some stage or at least make it a better place for the next generation. If that can be achieved through words then there is every chance in the future.