I once heard that, accounting from the dawn of times, humanity has left registry of around 10000(ish) deities. A week ago I was willing to believe that at te very least 51% were taking a pee on me. Most likely way more than that. Today, I'm willing to bet money that some of them are also taking a dump.

If you have been following this blog maybe you remember that some months ago I made the decision of abandoning my degree to go home and take care of both my dog's and my health. You may also remember that almost as soon as I arrived home, my grandma choked on her food. Monday 20th the doctor discharged her. She was to stop the antibiotics and even the oxygen eventually. We were all so glad that she was better. Friday (24th) she passed. Given the circumstances I'm still trying to figure out whether it was unexpected or not. I do know that it's taken a toll on my family. Specially my mother, since she lived with us. Also funerals, memorials and everything else are just plain exhausting.

I don't have much else to write about for the past two weeks. I got a stationary bicycle and am slowly starting to put some kms on it. I find it harder than going for a walk and it has the advantage of keeping control over the time I've exercised, calories burnt and so much more (as I imagine every modern stationary bike does, lol). I also feel my relationship with food has changed for the better. As much as I've been trying to find comfort in overly sugary things it doesn't seem to be possible anymore. Everything tastes extremely bland and with some kind of sandy texture. I'm way more prone to randomly eating fruit now when I get some kind of craving. 

Even though my weight keeps hovering just above the 90kg mark, which I hoped I'd be past by now, it's already been two weeks that I haven't been able to get a good grip on my diet (or my individual time, my stress levels and many more things for that matter) and even though I'd like to keep losing weight as fast and easily as I did on the first few weeks I feel like this slow and steady changes in my relationship with foods are the ones that will grant me long term success in my way to a healthier life. 

As always, thanks for reading.