Hi Everyone!
I don't even have the emotional energy nor capacity today to say good morning. Yesterday was a day, it was a very stressful, exhausting and emotionally taxing day. And the sad thing is I feel like my family seriously couldn't care less about what they've done. 
So the day prior, which I didn't get the chance to write about. My Aunt and here two daughters came by to see Grandma. That alone turned into toxic hell fire. My Aunt Lisa was telling my Grandma she needed to go into a home, saying caring for her was too hard. Which made me want to about snap! She never comes over, she doesn't call, she doesn't text. The only time she shows up is when she wants something and she's here to emotionally manipulate someone for her advantage or she's here for financial gain. It's disgusting. 
They were laughing and screaming so loud at Grandma she was so overstimulated. Grandma had to go to the bathroom and my Aunt refused to transfer her properly because she said she just needed to do it herself. According to my Aunt my dying Grandmother is simply being lazy. My family is truly a humiliation I swear! 
Mamma got back from the pharmacy, we got pizza and we eventually got everyone out and Grandma in bed. But Grandma got up throughout the night. She was very upset. She kept saying she didn't want to go into a home. That she was sorry she was such a burden. Mamma and I kept telling her she isn't going anywhere, that she isn't a burden. That being here is exactly where we need to be and she has nothing to feel sorry about. We are happy to be of service to her and we were so sorry that she was being made to feel that way. 
The next day, the day I'm writing about today, my Grandma all day was saying how she was so lazy. We asked her why she felt that way. She said because she was told by Lisa she should do it herself and such. And I was about to smash my head through a wall! They don't just get to come here and hurt my Grandma. 
They said they were going to spend all day with Grandma yesterday. But of course yet again they didn't show up until nearly 3 o'clock in the afternoon. They arrive with food to cook for Grandma. But not even five minutes. My Mamma asked her sister if she could tell her something outside. She said sure just let me go to the bathroom first. So Mamma was making a cup of coffee while she waited for her sister. Keep in mind, all my Mother wanted to say was Lisa it really upsets Mom when you continue to push putting her in a home. I'd really appreciate if you didn't discuss that with her and if you have any concerns about Mom's treatment if you direct them towards me as to not upset Mom right now. But she didn't even know what her sister wanted to talk about. All she knew is she took a little bathroom break as she decided the best way to create a scene and get out of having to deal with anyone. 
She storms out of the bathroom into the living and begins screaming at my Mother that she isn't talking to her and my Mother needs to back off. She's not talking! All of a sudden my Aunt's two daughters are upset, but their upset at my Mother.... Like my Mom was just standing there making a cup of coffee my dude... 
A screaming match began. Not a match more like my Aunt screaming, her two kids screaming, her husband screaming. Her youngest calling my Mom the B-Word physically coming after my Mother trying to assault her right in front of my Grandmother!!! My Aunt's eldest... Well she threatens to call APS (Adult Protective Services) and put Grandma in a home because all this fighting is killing her Grandmother! And Mom and I are just standing there thinking to ourselves "predictable". All they do is throw tantrums! They're so childish, immature, aggressive, manipulative and abusive! 
She said she's never coming back here. I guess that just shows how important her mother is... She couldn't even have a 60 second talk with her sister and then continue with her afternoon with her mother. 
Jesus...
Cops almost had to be called, they lingered outside for quite a while. They eventually left and I was so upset. I went to comfort my Grandmother. She said "Tell them to get out of my house". She looked so depressed. I gave my Grandma a big hug, I told her it was okay, don't worry about them. She's not a burden, she's not going anywhere, she's loved and she's not alone. I gave her some water and I put on the show she wanted to watch. 
My cousin Midge came back up after she cried outside for a while. She came to apologize to my mother and I and Grandma. She said she didn't mean what she said about APS, she was emotional, she doesn't like Grandma around fighting. 
Today Midge is going to be coming back alone. And hopefully today we can help show her that Grandma is doing just fine at home. That this is where she's happy. That our family is the scum of the Earth, but that doesn't mean it's too late for her to escape them and their BS. 
Grandma went to bed at 5PM she was so upset. I went to bed around 9PM but I woke up at midnight with night terrors again. So I haven't been able to sleep. Just emotionally worked up. My family is gross. They're so dramatic and for some reason they find that entertaining. I don't, I find it toxic and life disrupting and I won't let it hold me back. And I won't let them come in here if they're going to stir up problems with my Grandmother or my Mother. You don't just get to try and assault my mother and think I'm just going to let you walk back in here and go sup cuz! No... I will keep my cool, I will remain calm, I won't feed their drama, their demon egos. I will be the bigger person as I'm very well aware that Karma exists and she's coming. She's already begun her work. 
Any advice I have for you today is toxic people exist in every aspect of life. But don't fuel them. Don't let them see them get to you. The calmer you stay the crazier you drive them. Let them burn themselves, don't let them burn you. 

- Salem