I went to a wedding this weekend in Colorado and had the opportunity to catch up with some friends. Through our talks of what we now do for a living, what our goals are, and what is next in life, came talks of how our walks with Christ are going. There tends to be a common theme when talking to my friends and other about this topic. I do well for a while and then it becomes non existent for far to long. We jump into relationships hoping that we will grow and help our partner grow together in Christ, yet we never bring up the topic and check in on one another. Fear takes over and we just let everyone know all is good and try and portray that we are living the life Christ wants us to live even though we know it is a complete lie.

This fear of letting others know that we sin on a daily basis and struggle even just a little, holds us back from so much growth. I believe that most of us know what we need to do yet do not do it. There are the basics, like the absolute basics. Read your Bible and pray. There is no simpler task in following Christ (though we all know it is not easy). We daily walk around struggling with anxiety, depression, and feelings of uneasiness all because we know that we are not living as Christ has commanded us to. This is not to say that all is rainbows and butterflies if we follow Christ, in fact, it is usually the opposite, but there is just a comfort that Christ gives when we are walking with Him.

For me at least, I can go through weeks without talking with God and feel like garbage (between work, stress, anxiety, exc.) and then it just hits me like a bag of bricks, dude, just pray. Then those thoughts of, " I need to be better or in a more religious place before I come to God." O how stupid I am. The instant I pray to go with whatever I am struggling with, I feel a world better. No do all my pains, stress, anxiety, go away, absolutely not. But, there is a peace that I get knowing that it will be ok and it is in the Lords hands.

Despite knowing all of that, I will go another few days not spending time with the Lord, whether that is in prayer or devotion, I cut off communication. I know it may be silly, but I am writing this in the hopes that it helps me. I know that is what I do and how I feel as well as know that other struggle like I do. So this is a challenge to myself to help me stay accountable. To daily pray and spend time in Gods Word.

I hope you all have a great rest of your day and hope that you will turn your struggle and worries over to the Lord so that you can have some peace. :)