I want to promote freedom, but sometimes there are hard decisions to be made, it was one of them.

As someone who has been the victim of suppression of freedom several times, it was really hard for me to say other girls that they have to obey the same situation once again!

It was really bitter and unbelievably uncomfortable for me, so I decided to talk about it, maybe I come up with the right decision for the future.

Recently, on a bike ride, we met some young girls who wanted to come along. 16-17-year-old girls who showed interest in cycling and we, as a group with gender tolerance, welcomed their presence.

From the very beginning, new problems began that I did not have to deal with before. They wouldn’t accept the hijab and did not wear headscarves while cycling. Their hair could be seen in public which is not acceptable in the Islamic society of Iran. It is actually a crime and sometimes people get away with it and on some occasions, it is a symbol of civil protest.

Personally, I’m not only don’t believe in obligatory hijab, but I strongly oppose it, and I know that the majority of the members of the group think like me. But I also know that if the girls without hijab are in our group, then the troubles will start and those who are waiting for an excuse to torn apart our little society will misuse this opportunity.

I know very well that a cycling group with women, kids, and men together, in our small town in a country whose officials are the enemies of freedom and happiness, is a thorn in their eyes.

I know very well that we are moving on eggshells here, standing on the thin edge of a cliff.

Finally, I suggested that they make sure to wear a helmet. That way, no one will notice they don't have Hijab and everybody wins.

But my Conscience is not clear. I’m still struggling with what is right and what to do… It is not simply over, the dilemma of freedom-seeking and obeying unjust rules and regulations at the same time still exists. And someday I probably have to make the hard decision.