Bobs looks down at me and says literally honestly from his mouth, "Hell Fucking No". Why the fuck would I die for you? I then told him what if someone came into the house and grabbed and said they was going kill me if you did not do what they said, bob said well he going have to kill you because I would not have anything to give him and I would rather him kill me on his own than me die for somebody. That is what bob's told me. Talk about hurt. Wow! The pain that I was feeling in my heart and it felt like it was just being more and more crushed. 

A few months later I am the Kea'au farmers market and I get a message on messenger from someone I do not know. T had just gotten off the phone with my boyfriend who was at work in pahala picking macadamia nuts. So I decide why the hell not open my facebook messenger I got time because bob's mom and bob's mom's friend was still shopping for what they needed for the farmers market the next day in Na'alehu. I open up my messenger and the message is from a girl on the island of oahu. The island of oahu is about 1:45 minutes away by flight and by boat maybe the same time or little longer I am not to sure. But I open the message and it reads " you better tell your boyfriend leave my chick alone! ". I am like wow! wo! what the hell is this and what is going on? I message the girl back and tell her she must be mistaken because my boyfriend is at work and I do not know who she is or her girlfriend. 

The girl messages me back and tells me that I don't know them but my boyfriend is ex's with her girlfriend now and they have been talking for sometime and she caught them and she needed to tell me before my boyfriend tries to lie and cover his ass. I told her I am sorry she must have the wrong the person. The girl then sends me screenshots of messages that my boyfriend and her girlfriend were having. Messages like he was telling her "I love you" he also told her that he missed her and she was the only one for him, he told her he could never love another, he also told her he loved hearing her voice which means they talked, and he also said I loved seeing you and can't wait til we see each other again, which also means they have been together while he was with me. The girl also sent me screenshots of some of the photos they exchanged back and forth. 

At this point now I am entirely in shock and literally beyond shaking and start crying. I now know this girl is not lying to me and she is telling me the truth because it came from bob's phone number, the girls gf which was my boyfriends ex were messaging on the phone. There were a few times he took pics of himself and I was sleeping on the bed right behind him. He was talking to her all those late nights when I thought he said that he just could not sleep, because that is what he told me. I mean now I am just furious and bob's mom them come back  into the truck and she wants to know why I am crying and so upset. I throw my phone and scream at her she has a horrible son and I can not believe that he would hurt me the way that he did, I have been nothing but faithful and loyal to him all these years, I even gave up and threw away my family for him. Bob's mom looks at me says well I don't know not her problem. I am like wow! not your problem, its your dam son, I tell her then you must have known he was doing this behind my back. she just looked out the window and says you and him work it out , he the one wanted to be with you , that's what she tells me. 

So bob's moms friend finishes up her shopping and last minute stops and we are starting to head back to pahala from hilo. Almost to pahala bob's mom tells me don't over react and make a big thing out of nothing. Like wow again, like how could she even say something like that after all the years I have been with her son and all that I have done for her family that I have not even done for my own. Well I did not say a word back. As soon as we got home I took the 4 wheeler went up to the macadamia nut fields he was working in and confronted him. Bobs denied everything at first, Bobs said I was tripping and making up stories and didn't know what i was talking about. I then grabbed his phone and no surprise that the girl was right he was going to try and cover his ass and lie. Bobs had deleted every message he had with his ex, but something he did not know, I had all the messages saved on my phone for they were screenshotted and sent to me.

I show him the screen on my phone and all the messages. Bob just looks away from my phone. I then start to read the messages out loud to him , all what he told her and what she told him, I was beyond hurt and crying. I told him how could you lie to me and even do this to me after all that we have been through together. I also told him not once have I cheated on you and many times I now know I should have. Bob's try to grab my legs crying and saying he was so stupid, he doesn't know what he was thinking, and he loves me with all his heart and he didn't want me to leave him. I grabbed his phone and threw it against a macnut tree and then threw it on the ground. I told bob that he better hope and I pray that I am still at the house when he gets off of work, on top of slapping him a few times while he was standing and crying at my feet on the ground. 

I waited for bob to come home from work, and when he did , he kissed my ass like he usually did when he knows he messed up. I decided I was going to go home for two weeks and start to really think about things. When I decided to go home I did not know that I was pregnant. I later found out 2 months later , I was not feeling good and went to the dr and they told me to take a pee test and I was pregnant. I was afraid and I did not know how to tell bob. So I ended up staying at my grandmother's house longer. My grandmother and parents did not know, no one knew I was pregnant but myself. 

I went back to pahala after being at my mom them house for almost 1 month and bob accused me of cheating. Bob immediately attacked me. I got punches, I got slaps, and things thrown at me. When I tried to run away he pushed me down and held me down and started whacking and punching my side and then punching my head, finally I screamed and told bob the real reason I was away for so long was because I found out at the dr I was pregnant. Bob still continue to whack me and yelling at me it can not be his. He then gets up off of me and starts crying and steps back, and starts to baby me. I walk away from him holding my tummy, and crying and yelling at him fuck him. 

I ended up going to the dr a few days later because I felt something was night right and when I went to use the bathroom there was blood and what looked to me like a quite big blood clot. well the dr comes in with the ultrasound machine and does the process, then the dr looks over to me and says I'm sorry, there is no more life present, you have lost your baby and we will have to remove it from your womb, the dr also tells me that it will be a small procedere and should not be painful. I watched them vacuum my baby out of me and take it away.

When I went back home to pahala and told bob, bob told me that I was lying, and that I must not have been pregnant to begin with. How can you tell a woman that just had a miscarriage and baby sucked out of them that they are lying about being pregnant. Well the abuse did not stop it continued on and on and on and on . Mental abuse and physical it kept coming at me. I am now on SSI Disability unable to use my left knee properly and normally the way it should. You would think that leaving your girlfriend on SSI Disability tells you that you are abusive and need help. Not for bob, for bob it meant yes more pain let's see how much more she can take or how much more he could put me through.

One day we got into a fight and he whacked me and punched me and I ended up calling the cops on bob. Bob ended up taking off on his atv trying to avoid the cops. Well when this asshole took off on his atv he took off with my purse which had my cell phone, my wallet and everything else I needed in it as well. I called my mom too and she also came to the house as well, for she was going to be taking me home in the first place, then bob's mom them come home from the farmers market and you would not believe is about to happen next when I tell you.

Well bob's mom approaches the officers and says ..........

Stay tuned for Part 4

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