Our surroundings are us. 

As it would be the environment your in, dictates where you are in your own mind. When i was spending days alone i would write and research. When im surrounded i discussed politics and drama. 

The people i love take away from me what i couldnt live without a day before. sometimes it becomes a lot easier to let go and the absence of people who share my ideas and thoughts. i find myself giving them away to strangers and people who just wanted my attention. 

Where is my internet. The hype has died? Have i been swimming in 1 foot of water thinking im diving? Myriads of questions strictly channel my day about how much of a loser i can be to how empty my ambitions look like to me. 

How can i return to what i love without the hype of the colors green and red leading the way. The energy that found me is not the same as the energy im trying to find for myself. 

How mang ideas about projects will you think about when your future is unfolding. how many will you be able to get involved in and how many will slip away. Bitcoin/etherium/coding/development..... all these are new to me from an involvement stand point. I see a lot of me not liking my past decisions that were based on ignorance and a bit of social conditioning. I want to be included and i want to be involved. I know there is a lot we should/could/would...be doing. But i cant seem to find the center of how i could start being practical and use the platforms being created for a future where we dont have to heed the words of extremists and dishonesty. 

I want to be able to make my own decision but the responsibility that comes with it is what i tend to avoid. Lots of things to love yet they dont take our attention. How do you find a space where you can enter and finish your thoughts/ideas/work/practice....

Ps. Not sure how this is evolving but im having a hard time with the inconsistency of everythjng. Thank you for reading .