I started going to a psychiatrist because I had been working 20 hours a day since April. He diagnosed me with depression and I started using medication, but since there is a famous psychiatrist in the city I live in, an appointment cannot be found (here's the manipulation technique).
I took medication for 2 months, but it didn't work, and I want to tell someone about it because of the work I'm doing. Because I'm having a hard time lifting the load anymore. I'm keeping this blog.
The secretary of the psychiatrist I have been seeing since June did not call to make an appointment.
In July, no one asked, so I decided to go to my old psychiatrist, and in a single session, I explained what I was doing and that I was a white hat in cybersecurity.
Background
Because of the earthquake in Adana, I started living with my family for 2 years to support them.While their psychology was trying to improve, mine broke down and a distrust started from the family.
I started going to a psychiatrist because I had been working 20 hours a day since April. He diagnosed me with depression and I started using medication, but since there is a famous psychiatrist in the city I live in, an appointment cannot be found (here's the manipulation technique).
I took medication for 2 months, but it didn't work, and I want to tell someone about it because of the job I'm doing. Because I'm having a hard time lifting the load anymore. I'm keeping this blog.
The secretary of the psychiatrist I have been seeing since June did not call to make an appointment.
In July, no one asked, so I decided to go to my old psychiatrist, and in a single session, I explained what I was doing and that I was a white hat in cybersecurity.
I founded my own company and now the only thing I think about is my nephew, who is 1 year old. If necessary, I will work 20 hours a day for many years and protect my nephew under invisible arms in the internet world and in real life.
Because of the earthquake in Adana, I started living with my family for 2 years to support them.
While their psychology is trying to improve, mine has deteriorated and there is a distrust that starts from the family. Because they lied to me since my childhood and my brother was constantly given the opportunity to use all the family's opportunities. After this hour, my decision to erase my family and go to another country for a master's degree is final. A new page in my life and I need to get a new ID.
(I currently live in Turkey and in our culture, gossiping and revealing someone's private life is very normal. That's why Turks don't trust each other. Apparently, I don't communicate with people in my own country, my family and friends after that.)
In order not to misuse the experiences and skills I have gained. I also left it as evidence to a friend of mine in cyber security who works in the blue team.
Maybe you know well the psychopathism of the red team. It's like looking for a needle in a haystack, it requires constant skepticism.
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When I went back to my old psychologist to talk to someone, he advised me to stop taking my old medications and use the medications he gave me. This incident happened yesterday and today I don't know what happened, but I don't know what he told my family, but my psychiatrist planted seeds of doubt in my mind.
I told this person about my personal life and the work I was doing, and he tricked me into my family.
From now on, I realized that everyone is thinking about their own interests and I have a prejudice against the people of my own country and the Turks I will meet abroad. This lesson cost me 130 dollars. Because there is a famous fraudster in our country called Sülün Osman.
If I'm going to tell anyone anything, I need a confidentiality agreement and a lawyer.
Since I do not trust anyone, I will continue to remain a black box and it is necessary not to show my emotions to anyone.
I canceled all appointments and will start making preparations to start a new life from today.
Everyone comes to this world alone and leaves alone.
I just want inner peace
