I turn 56 today. 

Normally a birthday is a happy day. This is my first birthday since Mom has passed. 

As long as I stay busy and don't think about her being gone, I'm OK. Otherwise, I'm a crying mess. Fortunately, I can usually stay busy enough(distracted) that I don't think about(dwell on) her being gone. Yesterday was the 62nd wedding anniversary for Mom and Dad. Both are now gone. 

I think since I was at home most of my life, that I got closer to my parents than most people do. This was good while they were here. It makes is rougher now that they are both gone. Dad has been gone almost 15 years. I don't remember when I got past it. I do know that currently dealing with the loss of Mom is rough for me. I will get past it at some point. I'm just not there yet.

Early 2020 I had a stroke. The biggest effect on me is I'm "wobbly" when I walk. Also, seem to be a bit more emotional than I was. 

Happy Birthday?