Life is one long meh 😕 with breif glimpse of happiness.

Recently , especially today all is feel is just a giant meh 😕. There is nothing wrong , i don't have any urgent thing. Well actually , school and pile of projects i am trying to scramble to do.  Plus extra things i got to do for a client etc. Nothing that will make me depressed. Before writing here i never thought i would write things ,like inner thoughts, i am guy and until now i never wrote a daily journal or even told anyone anything about internal demons. I guess it just the stereotype with guys.

Someone close to me keep asking why do I look sad and i keep saying i don't. They frequent see me and we have fun , but when we are not doing anything i thing, and this makes them think i am sad , or whatever. Today i went out after i was stressing about school and to bored inside. Right now it's like spring where i am so Soo.. tonnes are people outside in the park . I mean lots. 

And i walk around and all i feel is meh. And then i thought about it most of the times all i feel is meh. I don't have any reasons to . I even think what is there to make me feel this way. Did something happen . No yet most times , everyday ,it's just ,meh 😕. 

Happiness is just fleatting.

Most times its just something happens that i like or i get good news then i feel happy , after i come down from the high i am back to meh 😕.it feels like a drug I'm inhaling. I guess life ,.day to day is just boring. Anyways there is no point or advice to this post. I don't really like writing these anyways.