A person can hardly forget his childhood memories, whether they were pleasant or painful. Various things happened in my childhood days, but I remember some of them well, especially a somewhat strange memory that was hidden among the rest of the memories, but it passed in my mind while I was reading.

Among the things that stick most in my memory from my childhood is my constant wiping at night. I did not cry because my father punished me or that my mother did not allow me to play or anything else that makes young children cry. No, it is very different. When night falls, I lay my head On the pillow, the thought of death attacks me. I was crying because I imagined myself out of existence, that I would vanish like a cloud.

The idea of ​​death did not terrify me as much as my non-existence in life terrified me. I used to stay all night begging God not to make me die. When I remember this story, I laugh a lot, how naive I was, how afraid I was of death and that I would become nothing. I have always begged God not to die. I never thought about the possibility that my father, mother, or brothers would die, but rather focused on my own death, and this is what surprised me at the present time.

How can a child think about the issue of death!?? Strangely enough, it only happened at night while I was sleeping. In general, all children dream of beautiful things, such as sweets, games, spaces, etc., but I was completely different from the rest. One of the strangest things is that I came close to death several times in my life, once when I was a child and another when I was studying in high school and the third when I got sick after graduating from university, I talked about this incident in one of my articles, you will find it in this link:   https://www.publish0x.com/racha/grazing-death-xqenggx .

I was always running near the edge of death,but, each time, i get out safe, so I wondered if this was because I was asking God not to die and that he responded to my prayers , or were they just coincidences?

Strange is the fate indeed. The idea of ​​death still scares me, but this time it is not from my death. On the contrary, I have come to see that death is a passage to a more beautiful, great and peaceful world. This does not mean that I am desperate or thinking of suicide, not at all, because I love life very much, but I am afraid of death of my beloved ones, especially my mother and brothers. After the death of my father, I suffered a lot of pain and I am still in pain for his loss, but this is his destiny and this is the law of life.

I think we are all frightened by the idea of losing ​​our loved ones , and there are those who fear from dying, however, my death does not scare me at all as much as the loss of my dear ones scares me .

I still remember the long nights in my childhood, crying at the thought of my death, and laughing a lot at this strange situation from the part of a seven-year-old girl.

Well, I think that death is an unwanted visitor, whether for children or adults, but it is inevitable and we have to accept it. We may suffer a lot,  certainly we will suffer greatly that our hearts ache , but, fortunately, God has blessed us with a great grace , which is forgetfulness . Every calamity is born great, but it becomes smaller with the passage of time until it fades completely and only few memories remain in our hearts and minds.

I hope that you will not lose any of your dear ones, and I hope that we have the time and circumstances to enjoy with our loved ones before it is too late and not regret their separation before we bid them farewell or express our love to them . Death comes without warning ، so be careful not to miss the opportunity to enjoy time with your dears deeply. 

Death is the most difficult thing we face. We cannot imagine life without our loved ones. At the same time, it is present all the time around us . Therefore, we must always be ready to face it and receive it with our good deeds that God has commanded us to do.

Death is a right upon us as is life, and we are required to live this life and enjoy it, and no human being should end his life or the life of others for any reason whatsoever, because the soul has one creator, God, and He is the only one who has the right to take it at the appropriate time that He determines, because we belong to Allah(God) and to Him we shall return.

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