It is my dialysis session about a couple of hours from this writing and I badly needed it already. Last night I had a bad dream not because of anything but because I have some trouble breathing and so it made me to get some bad dreams which caused me to wake-up with my heart once again racing like I am chased by dogs.

But fortunately it is my dialysis session and it will again normalize my breathing. I just thank God that my lungs are not filled-up with fluids but right now it is gurgling with fluids.

I thought that the fluids in my lungs are solved already after I had the anti-TB therapy but once again it is just a problem that would not go away.

Now I only have a small capacity of my lungs due to my scoliosis which is the cause of squeezing my internal organs most notably my lungs. I know that because whenever I sing a hymn just a couple of syllables and I already running out of air which is unlike before.

It is just that my blood itself has a better oxygen-carrying capacity which is why it compensates for my body's needs for oxygen. Had I been anemic then things will be so hard for me and even getting up for that matter will cause me to get a laboring breathing.

It is hard to control my fluid intake if I only have a very limited capacity to load on water in my system. My only hope is for me to perspire so in that way I can let out some of the water and give me more liberty to consume fluids that way while minimizing this kind of breathing problem that I am getting. So I just can't wait for the hot season to come and even though it is uncomfortable my body needs it as it goves me more advantages regarding my well-being.