Have you ever had let your toe-nails grow so much that your feet bleed when you wear shoes?

Have you ever found yourself realizing this was happening and still failed to take action and CUT YOUR FREAKING TOENAILS OFF?

Well, I have been putting this off for almost a week now and the bleeding is getting worse as the days pass by.

You may think I am a moron, not only for not cutting my toenails off but also -or especially- for writing about it. Wait, refrain yourself from judging, let’s try and analyse what is going on and see if it’s as moronic as you think.

Why can’t I get myself to cut off my freaking toenails?

During this week, I have already reorganized my closet twice, vacuumed and mopped the floor, applied for jobs, studied German online and even ironed my clothes. Something starts to tell me it is not laziness but something else.

Procrastination isn’t a unique character flaw or a mysterious curse on your ability to manage time, but a way of coping with challenging emotions and negative moods induced by certain tasks — boredom, anxiety, insecurity, frustration, resentment, self-doubt and beyond.

According to Dr. Tim Pychyl, professor of psychology and member of the Procrastination Research Group at Carleton University in Ottawa, “procrastination is an emotion regulation problem, not a time management problem”.

In this like, procrastination isn’t about laziness, but about my inability to manage and deal with my emotions. Am I feeling anxious, insecure, frustrated…? I could add to the list… YEP! I am. Am I acknowledging these emotions? NOPE! Or wait, maybe I just did.

Now that I think about it, the bleeding situation as discouraged me from wearing shoes, and as I don’t want to wear shoes, I am leaving the house less frequently, only if it is absolutely necessary.

What is out there that is so scary? Not sure.

While writing this post I started analyzing all of this, and I think at least I found an avenue I can start investigating... and perhaps even act upon.