This is exactly what I wanted to hear and read when I was fifteen but barely anyone would be interested in writing about such a topic. The shyer I am, the more creative my life seem to turn out. I would probably say I am more introverted but it helps me navigate my life and guide the decisions I make. 

I loved theatre. l I would sometimes recite a poem in literature or language classes and I would give my all to interpret the text with the most accuracy I could find in me. Back then I noticed it was not because of introversion but because I was shy as well. I would be involved in creative activities ,it would be about art not me. Now that I reflect on the experience I do think I had teachers that would think of creative ways to make students like I was participate. I even shied away from taking theatre classes. Writing and singing were maybe a bit more intimidating to do so I picked that. People might use the term "scared brave", I definitely relate to this.I started writing things , I mean at first I would have an idea, talk it out but I would not keep a trace of it until I realised that I wanted to see how my writing evolves over the years. I would get to the desk and try to have a routine to ease up my nerves so I would try to create something.I am still embarrassed to admit it today, but without those moments I would not be here writing this post so I think it was not too bad after all. I was that teenager some teachers wanted to help participate in class because I could not raise my hand in classes I actually liked. Yes,that teenager. In those days I did not hide it. I had classmates who would play popular just to be accepted a bit more. I just could not do it because pretending seemed exhausting. Fake it until you make it is not a part of my vocabulary and for that reason life seemed hard because I was my true self in private and public settings. Art was and still is a way for me to express myself without feeling like I have to overtake the entire room to be heard. We live in a day and age where you have to overcome your shyness to become someone or someone successful in life but I do think that shyness is needed to avoid the pitfalls of society. Everything is set up for shy people to become completely somebody they are not. We see people around us in all industries ,in Hollywood even more so that want to get rid of that shyness because it is not thought to be a glamorous trait of ours. To me it is a good protection to make great decisions in my life, maybe it is time we brought it back. Everything evil stems from the lack of that principle. Even a moral code stems from shyness. It is the "no I do not want to do that sorry". I have to say no a lot because evil is everywhere. Every industry is full of demons. I have to protect myself from that so I shy away because I am not interested in satanism and things like this. I am too shy to partake in things of that nature. I do not go to night clubs on my own , how would I even attend their secret meetings. I am interested in activities like writing songs rather than trying to be popular.It helps with not selling out for fame or fifteen minutes of attention. (Being social is also an illusion but that is for another post). I still love the feeling of having written a new song because I have to integrate that I do not need to act like somebody else to do so. I would be happy with just one word or one line. If you are truly shy, you might know what I am talking about. Every small victory like this feels like big ones because I had to bring myself up to try it. I cannot imagine compromising and sacrificing that feeling because it is important to me. 

If I choose to become that lousy person who drinks a lot and smoke drugs to look cool then I would not have interest in writing at all. Sadly the entertainment industry is sending messages to the youth I find quite disturbing. I do the things that scare me the most and these things may look as boring as writing a song for example but if fifteen year olds or even adults could know that if they are shy you do not need to act obnoxiously ,then me sharing these posts may matter. But if society does not agree then protect yourself from evil because it is wicked and unhealthy in the long run. It also means there are certain things like "signing your name in blood " or "do whatever it takes" to be successful that you may not do to share your passion and work. The pain comes when a culture promotes ideas that say selling out is a requisite for success. Let's remember here evil is a marketer and knows the psyche by heart ,in other words well equipped for the deception upon the masses.  As a creative do you change what you create to fit in with what is popular at the moment and hide it as a "business tool" for a revenue? It does not hurt to be shy per say, it is the pressure people feel to overcome it, when they do it turns ugly ; that actually mean they can do wicked things because they are not shy anymore. I want to get over feeling scared to write a song but I want to be too shy to do evil things. I think that is something attainable, not a popular idea but still possible.