If you are so inclined to look online for more drugs to learn about and possibly use you eventually learn about legal highs like Benzedrex from one of many sources, including reddit.

Five and a half years ago i was being drug tested randomly as a result of a DUI I was trying to get out of. I was desperate to get high on ANYTHING. I googled how to get high legally. I ran into a thread on a random website called bluelight.org talking about an OTC called Benzedrex. Interest piqued I went to Erowid to learn more. From there I read about the drug on more scientific sites and even checked out what the DEA had to say about the stuff.

There were many websites selling it, analyzing it scientifically, warning about the dangers of abusing it, explaining it's medical uses and pharmacology. There were communities on random sites describing experiences.

It's more common knowledge now but after delving deep in medical studies I learned (thank God) that the only deaths caused by Benzedrex were from injecting the drug.

I learned that the crashes were hard and that tolerance built up fast. .

After years of using every day or two (with weekly and monthly breaks scattered here and there over the years) I needed to quite.

I had built up an epic tolerance and maxed out at 14 rods a dose. Partially the long, gradual increase in rods over the years had created superhuman tolerance but also I have a strong, built in tolerance developed over 2-3 decades. I also use purification techniques before, during and after and have access to drugs to counter adverse effects like vasoconstriction and heart stress although at 14 cottons I still went into hypotensive crises and had heart palpitations but I would meditate my way through it surviving again and again.

Now, one reason i was able to tolerate all that benz was my process, it is quick and dirty, I glove up and put 50ml of Coke into my trusty Pyrex. I remove the cottons from the packages and inhalers quickly with heavy duty scissors as I have people concerned about my use at this point ( I had stupidly told my wife how excited I was that I'd found a decent drug that was legal. I defended my use by claiming it helped my ADHD which i couldn't get treated for lack of psychiatrist at the time) she became concerned after reading about the toxic and addictive nature of the drug. Some of what she read was exaggerated or written in a way to panic people but mostly her concern was valid. Plus I was a certified drug fiend and polyuser and she didn't want to see me back in the saddle with a fifth in one hand and needle in the other one looking for a vein.

I had recently kicked speed and black tar only to run out and get a DUI.

I love drugs and don't stop until things become very uncomfortable.

I put together periods of light use and uneasy clean time but I'm always on something and can usually maintain.

Back at my table with Benzedrex I nervously put all the cottons in the pyrex with the Coke , with haste I put the empty inhalers in the trash. Then I began lifting the cottons out of the coke and squeezing them out thoroughly back into the Pyrex. With 14 cottons I do this only once, at lower doses I dip and squeeze more times. I was recently dosing 2 to 3 cottons and doing the dip squeeze ten times first time. I always reuse my cottons two or three times or more once an hour ( or every two, ive noticed benz has a renewed surge after two hours) and then I'll squeeze em 20 - 30 times.

Over the last few years I have gotten very high and experienced extreme pleasure 1000s of times but....

Recently I started bipolar meds and they kill all euphoric symptoms of benz. Benz had also started to randomly make me sick and give me panic attacks that sent me to ER 3 times in 3 months convinced I was dying. the shit was not working and made me feel like shit over and over but I still couldn't stop. I weened down to two cottons as of last week. My last dose was a week ago. The shit made my whole body swim with weird sensations, tingling, patches of heat, goosebumps, tremors, and A physical feeling of terror that radiated throughout my body along with an indescribable feeling that came in waves that felt like my body was going to overload and explode into seizures or just simply explode. I was convinced I'd developed reverse tolerance and overdosed on two fucking cottons. I started to fear serotonin syndrome. I knew for sure I was going to die and started googling symptoms for my possible death but no matter how I phrased my symptoms the results answered with panic attack.

I took every supplement and drug I had that might help bring me down. I tried remedies like eating and a hot bath. It all slowly helped and as I came down I decided to quite. I became terrified of ever feeling that way again which to my horror, over the next few days after I came down the panic attacks came back without the benz .. they were like aftershocks. I wondered if i'd finally fucked my brain and would be like this forever living in fear of the next panic attack. It's been three days now without a panic.

Anyways, I only started hanging around this sub a few month ago and although it has triggered me once or twice it mostly reminded me how badly I needed to quite this drug by reading other peoples accounts of overuse and abuse.

It has helped me to make it a full week.

Sidenote: People use drugs to get high and will always find a way to do so. Information doesn't make people get high it just makes them more aware and smarter about it. Information isn't dangerous, irresponsible people are.

Thanks to everyone for sharing all the experiences.

Well Benzedrex, I love you but we stopped having fun months ago, goodbye you dirty lavender stankin bitch.

(one month clean)

Previously published and crossposted from Reddit