Awareness is key

As I have spend my day writing about my collective knowledge and the sense it made to me, plus how I am relating to all of it, all the lessons on this level of my path and how I know I will be excelling above my plans overtime. It has been building up all along, I read the email not expecting for it to relate to what I wrote about in anyway shape or form but as I continued to read on, it became evident that we are in sync, me and her. The best part of all of it is when the email went " The heart already knows the path and mission, it's the mind that needs to sync to the heartbeat and feel not just think".

Nobody and nothing can stand in this path, the heart stays waiting on the mind to sync, together they connect to the universe easier resulting in the realization of whatever it is that you want to manifest. It does not matter how big or unrealistic it is, what matters is that you switch into your belief system and leave the rest to the universe.

[Interlude]

I realized that all that I had been going through had just been a loading of burden on me, weighing me down, making things harder,selling me illusions but she urged me to take this as training for the future, as preparation for the greatness to come. In time I have learned all that needed to be released I have learned how it is to have it all and how to have nothing and actually be that voice in the wilderness, just me and the universe, never displeased with the universe, at times superbly displeased with my lower selves. In those times alone with the universe, it didn't feel like the universe heard me at all because I think of where I was when I was younger, a freshman trying to pass while on the job that payed a bit too well for a freshman. So much that it overwhelmed those around, which then as I was under a shrub in the dessert too tired to go on, I thanked the universe for the breath that I had, I honestly was tired and all I wanted was the universe to take me, but the thought of heat stroke, having done a bit of medical studies, I know too well that heat stroke or dying of thirst is some of the worst ways to die. Fast forward to better mindsets,I guess the universe keeps me in the cycles to ensure the lessons are learned. To be honest,I went all out, really forgot myself and just listened to myself but somehow went silent again and I found myself under lockdown which is another story. 

Through all these I kept loving the universe, I look at the moon and I see love, I tame the sun and it leaves me feeling so much better than I had felt in a really long time, all while the cycles went on repeatedly, one after the other. I just kept doing what more I could, although its all hazey from this point of view. Everything I had been muttering to myself, the rejections that came concealed under smiles. At times during my research I get lead to really useful information that by itself had the potency to liberate me, but with every step I took, I blessed the universe I relayed love and kindness for all else and when my anger surfaced, I let it flow out. In causing the will to feel, I became blind to almost all else because if I can't feel the right part of it that connects with, if my heart doesn't vibe with it, I won't pretend to vibe with it, I'll just pass the time and I notice this when I subconsciously start thinking. Thought is an indication that there is a disturbance in the IKIGAI, one of the components is either missing or thrown off. Most times I just fall into another lesson/cycle, trust me, I don't look forward to these lessons but they look forward to me. I realized there was a big part of me that needed to grow and balance out. There is another part of me that pushes me to disconnect myself and just go away, like I have been going thinking the best solutions will arise if I just spend enough time alone. I never seem to just spend enough time alough.

[Interlude ends]

Reading that email just gave me so much life, so much love I felt within me lit up like I don't need to want to be alone anymore. My heart connected to my mind will lead me to places I need to be to meet and greet awesome beings that await.

Cheers 

Love n light

Bless up!