I saw you changed your profile.
I wanted to write to you,
To let you know that the man of your dreams is out there.
I want to convince you that I'm him,
But I'm not.

You want someone who'll love you for who you are,
Someone who'll give you
No bullshit, no drama.
It's really not too much to ask.

I'm just a lier,
Some stuck manchild
Who won't handle his own bullshit past,
Will dump it on somebody else.
I don't want to do that to you.
I don't want to lie to you,
Darling.
I won't try
Convince you
I could drop everything,
Could change my life
To be there for you,
If you pay for the plane tickets,
Just get me to where you are.
No, it won't work. I know that much.

I want to be that man for you,
I really do.
I know I can't.
It's not what I really want,
Not what you deserve:
So much more than you get,
So much more than I can offer.
I jump too soon to be a protector.
This time, I won't.
Good intentions,
They pave the road to Hell.
Well we know,
Our private ones
Are big enough.

If I'm to love you at all,
I'll do it from afar.
Until such time as I'm the man I want to be,
'Tis best I keep the world at bay,
Find a way to live apart;
A quiet life with no alarms and no surprises.
I'll take
A handshake
Of carbon monoxide,
Please.

A cabin in the woods,
Making furniture with my hands,
Talking to nobody but my dog:
A life for the two of us alone,
That's what I want.
That's not for you, though,
Is it, Sweetheart?

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