In this open smile
confident broad
blonde hair
full of light
in this photo so young
I see you how I prefer to see you
-your silence
was always almost palpable-
and I know you taught me
that joy for life
and nature.
Your fishing trips
boat
and your methodical discipline
to prepare the walks
you share
with friends and relatives
the classic roast.
The family was more family
in summers camping
in the shelter of the tent
we slept body to body
under the infinite stars
from the southern sky
discover the Tres Marías
and the Southern Cross
the night fires
for dinner
free camping
And free bath!
almost no bathing
The icy water of the lake
it was hard to bear!
and that passion that you put
to the music you were listening to
the Chevy ate thousands
km of travel.
Sometimes you intoned
the International
and it made me laugh
and you sang with pleasure
I learned that too
when listening to you, and sang
with you the forbidden letters
of the disastrous time.
In your Alzheimer's
you sang uninhibited
I helped you with the lyrics
of folklore or tango
we had fun
to split laughter
while we took you
in the car for a walk
and you sang out loud.
Your last songs
speechless
obsessive almost
the rhythms with the voice and the hand
in that inner consciousness
primal and so essential
of your own life.
Yesterday I told you, stroking your hair
that you could go quiet
that you already did what you had to do
that you left if you wanted ...
We would like
do not suffer
that you go in peace
there is a moment
what is enough
from our motives
and hearts
and we don't know why
the skin seems to give signs
of wanting to continue feeling
life wants to pulse
in every organ and cell
the blood wants to circulate who knows
how many million times more
through the same veins
and who can have pride
to say when is the time
when life ends
it expires and the soul retreats
who can say enough.
The heart keeps beating
there is a breathe life
beyond wills.
You went out to swim out to sea
with powerful vitality
It scared me a little ...
You swam super graceful
and there you freed yourself from the weight of the earth
how happens to me when i swim
and i feel like a feather
free as a fish and light
from the weight of life sometimes,
you make me intuit
when your silence and mine enter
that maybe you got rid of something
that imprisoned you
of your life
as sometimes happens to me
but different.
Because
your life that was and is no longer
go to know why
as if there was something left
of your old reasons for living
your love for nature
swim, water, sail
or your treasures where no one arrived
and the life that still ties you
in its mystical material splendor
the life that doesn't seem like life
without being lucid
that same life sustains you
in your degree of consciousness
that nobody knows
in the heartbeat of your breathing.