What would make life feel like a 9/10 regularly instead of hovering around 4-5 for most of your life. Like come on do i really expect life to be exceptional everyday , not even exceptional , maybe 6.5 at least.

I Don't know what it is , for me , maybe you have the answer for you. Maybe just having a normal life is content for you and you find immense joy in it. I think i need to find it because i think of what future would i be content living, and still can't find it yet.

I ask this question to myself recently because everything thing seem to be going smoothly and today and yesterday,let's just say it's not my feeling.

If i look at everything rationally recently everything is going good , prospects life ,money etc and yet today i just sat there and ended up the closet to not happy why does this happen.

Sitting with your thoughts for a few minutes is devastating , if your mind goes to some places. 

I don't know maybe it's the fact that in a long time my mind has not been idle . When it idle you think alot about the future i realized my material set point is relatively low. Your material set point is a phrase i heard from a podcast . The host said that everyone should set a materialistic set point to avoid lifestyle creep. People tendency to buy more stuff with increase is wealth leaves then close to subsistence living.

Anyways a lot of things people are unhappy or not content with their present situation . I do ask myself sometimes if i could do something ele, anything right now , In those moments I could not think of something i would rather be doing than that. That doesn't make any sense because i know i would rather be doing something. But what, maybe i should practice contentment more or it's a warning sign I'm missing something or i should just be stuck keeping busy so i don't think about it too much.

I know that this current moment doesn't represent my feelings.every day. Maybe i just going through a patch.  

Is my mood coloring my current experiences gray or is everything just seeming do gray and ordinary ,influencinh my mood. Let's see how it is after this week.