Or is it. 

Staring at a phone in order to pass time becomes redundant. The feeling of things i have read over and over again creates an animosity towards myself. My brain wants something new. 

I found it. The colors green and red changed and got me excited but now the excitement is trying to be patient. How far into the future can i wait until the colors bring me back to life? How far to i have to prepare for the red signals before the green kicks in again?

Something new but all i see is where im looking at. How deep can i see and how far can my understanding go? Where do i start to explore behind the words/sites/pools/yields/blocks.... the minute information becomes redundant i feel an urge to break. 

It climbs on me slowly until i have accepted the limit i reached. Every time i see it it has a different effect with the same result. A frustration coming from a sense of involvement that is very superficial. How deep? How far? What am i getting into is the question.

New outlook and a search for new resources but that works until it doesnt. Or it works until i stop pushing for more. Lucky for me the ADHD allocated to me helps in bringing out the feelings at the moment instead of what normal woukd have done over many more days. 

An instant realisation of unfulfillment i would say. A talk that has been done or was initially incomplete . 

Many ways to get into the internet that i love but i wouldnt want it to be exiting the world i already am in.