Seth Godin wrote in “the most important blog post”:

Even if no one but you reads it. The blog you write each day is the blog you need the most. It’s a compass and a mirror, a chance to put a stake in the ground and refine your thoughts.

Well, today is one of those days.

It’s been a really long week. I’m really tired and I can feel the lack of ideas flowing. It’s like a clogging of the mental arteries.

But yet, I put words down on the screen, figuring that my job is simply to record the fact that I’m tired because I’m struggling.

Struggling with depression, yes, and trying to get my mental health right, but struggling also with some decisions I need to make (or I feel like I need to make), but can’t seem to make.

Or, worse, don’t have the courage to make. It feels like cowardice.

I read all the platitudes, know them inside and out, and yet….

and yet when it comes to take the jump, it’s not as easy as it was 20 years ago.

Maybe that’s what happens when you age.

Maybe the courage becomes harder (and thus requires more practice?)

I don’t know.

And maybe the simple act of blogging when you feel like you have nothing to say and not caring if anyone reads it at all is really more courage than you realize.