Freewrite: 12:00am

This is about you.....Yes....you.

While you lay asleep, dreaming, I think about you. I do my best to be the man I should be, but why do I still feel like I'm 'not enough'?

What are you dreaming about? I imagine it's squirrels, about floating on the river, smile on your face just at peace. I wonder if you dream about me, about how I could be better, about how you'd like me to be.

This does help. I'm crazy, you know that.....I apologize. Thank you for being patient, tolerant, and understanding. You've helped me in more ways than I can even begin to describe.

When I don't see you.....I get lazy.....I get low...

When you're around......I'm encouraged, empowered, energized (lots of E's huh?)

I could write for days, weeks, months, years, centuries, lifetimes while you lay asleep. You make me want to be better.....to be "Daniel" and not Dan.

Thank you for being here. I'm doing my best, and I put a lot more effort out when you're around. Thank you for being you....thank you for being someone I can trust. Thank you for trusting me, despite my capability of lying or being deceitful.

What Are You Dreaming About?

I imagine it's unicorns and weed......you are in paradise, and I just happen to be around. You look into my eyes, and you swim in the depth of them. I look into your eyes.....golden, beautiful, perfect.....I get stuck in them like quick sand.

You're dreaming about another trip....about your next adventure, schmoozing someones eyes off the same way you did me. I like envision you as a little sales woman. I bet you're the one person who could have topped me in sales....I'd be chasing you, trying my best to one up you (The same way I am now lol).

You're dreaming about a 4 leaf clover. You pick it....out of thousands. You admire it's beauty, it's perfection, the way it is different from all others. While you look at it though you think....."Every one of these 3 leaf clovers are beautiful as well". You drop the 4 leaf and lay down in the field, drawing in the glory of your revelation.