Hi Everyone!
Good morning <3 I woke up in a very good mood today! For the past couple of days now I've finally been getting some really good sleep. It's been super helpful. 
Yesterday I'd like to describe my day as a pamper day, a self care day. A day where I took care of myself. Mentally, physically and emotionally. These are some of my most favorite days. When the world around you comes crumbling down, you still have yourself. It's better to care for yourself because you're your most valuable asset. Always remember that. 
For all of the other people like myself, who may suffer from some mental health issues. Know you're worthy and it's okay that we may not do the world's best job at self care. When you can you will and it'll be so worth it. <3 
My day yesterday I just wanted to take care of myself. As you know if you've been keeping up with my daily entries, I've been going through a whole lot recently. My mind and body has truly been under a lot of stress. It's been breakdown after breakdown. My world has been quite depressing, I haven't felt like myself for a while now. I haven't given time to what matters to me. To what makes me happy. So yesterday I spent time doing just that. And I must say, today, I woke up in a really good mood. I'm already feeling a whole lot better. 
After my morning side hustle routine I went into the bathroom. I was starring at myself in the mirror as I was washing my hands. Do you ever have those moments where you see yourself in your reflection, but you don't just see surface level, you really see deep within. I had one of those moments. I saw a person who was sad, who needed to be cared for. Someone who needed a little extra love. 
I decided to brush my teeth. You may say that brushing your teeth isn't a decision it's something you do twice a day no matter what. And what I say to that neurotypical is that you've obviously never been depressed lol. Lately at most I've been brushing my teeth once a day. But there are some days where I use mouth wash and call it good, simply because I don't have the brain power to stand there for two minutes and scrub my teeth. It can be very hard to take care of yourself when you're depressed. So here on this blog, there is never any shame. And know that this Enby (Non- Binary Person) completely understands you. 
Once my teeth were brushed I felt a sense of pride. Again, it comes with the depression. But it was that pride that got me to do my skincare routine. Now I'm someone whose absolutely in love with skincare!! Totally obsessed!! But when my depression bug gets worse, I must say, I don't do a very good job at being consistent with my routine. So when I had my entire skincare routine done, and I looked at my hydrated, moisturized and nourished skin I felt absolutely beautiful! It's the little things my dude! 
Now normally, I would spend my day working the Mechanical Turk program. Trying to do as many side hustles as I possibly can. Keeping myself busy to distract myself. I have a lot going on right now and thinking about it makes me feel a whole lot worse. I started working on the program. I got about two or three tasks done before I said to myself "You know what Salem, I think your time would be better spent doing something a bit more you..." So that's exactly what I did. 
Something you probably don't know about me yet is that I LOVE documentaries! I also love true crime and overall studying things I find myself passionate about. I always say teaching yourself is what will lead to the biggest results because it means you actually care enough about that subject to absorb as much of it as you can get your little fingers on. Teaching myself is something I have always thoroughly enjoyed. Yet this dude sucked booty hole in school! lol! The whole disaster of the school system is for another time lol. I won't make this an entire book hehe!
So I sat down, I watched a couple documentaries, and some videos by one of my favorite Youtuber's Bailey Sarian. She makes true crime videos along with dark history videos. I love history, especially when it's a bit twisted. So watching her videos really made my day feel quite nice. 
I lit some incense to cleanse the space of all the toxic gross energy that has been clouding my space. That true YUCK! You just need to get rid of at least once a day in order to keep proper spiritual sanity in my opinion. 
I wrote in my journal, because writing is something that brings me the most joy! Something about pen on paper that makes me feel so complete. The documenting of my weird brain gives me a sense of wholeness, satisfaction and pleasure that I've been truly enjoying since I was a young child. I can't even count how many journals I've completely filled. But if the journal is too cute you can bet your booty hole I will not write it in lol. Must not ruin the CUTENESS!!! 
Took my vitamin yesterday as well. I'm always forgetting to do that. Thank you ADHD!!! But yesterday as it was in fact a self care day, taking my vitamin was necessary. When I do little things like this for my wellbeing, along with things like showering, going for a walk, NOT binge eating! Those things make me feel like I'm doing right by my body. My body is sick, it goes through a lot. I'm chronically ill. When I take that extra time out of my day to say, hey body I love you. It makes me feel warm. Again my dude, it's the little things.
Went to the post office with my Dad, then hit up the market. I was sad to see a piece of mail that I've been waiting for still hasn't arrived. But then again it did say one to two weeks and it's only been one. So hey, maybe next week. Keep our heads up! But the market part, that was for caffeine. lol! Must get the energy juice! Brain no function without caffeine and nicotine thank you very much!
Today it was mainly me and expensive kitty until almost bed time. My partner Dammie spent the day at his soccer tournament that's local to the area he's in. We talked in the morning before he left for his game, then when he got home. 
I was so proud of my baby to hear that he made the two assists to his teams two goals that one them the game! I'm always proud of him, win or no win. But I know that when he wins he feels better about himself. But at the end of the day I always make sure to remind him, that he played his heart out. That's what truly matters. He went and did what he loves. That makes me happy, therefore I will always be proud of him. 
I laid in bed scrolling through Tumblr (Which btw, highly recommend joining!)  and talking to my love <3 we had a beautiful conversation. He's such an adorable dorkie. I love him so much! We've been together for nine months now. Almost all of 2022. My year wouldn't have been the same without him. I don't think I could've gotten through this year without all of his emotional support. He's always got my back, he always knows how to make me smile. He's truly a beautiful soul. I admire him so much. Everyone deserves a partner who treats them as such. I'm so lucky to have found him. 
The day had then been complete, it was getting late for us both, it was time to head to bed. So I took my medicine, got all cozy, turned up the heater since we are currently experiencing below freezing temperatures and are about to be hit by a week long snow storm. If for some reason I don't write within this next week, know it's because the power got cut out and I will catch you up when I return. But lets hope that doesn't happen. Because boredom. 
Remember to take care of yourselves. You're priceless! The little things are everything, so always make sure to give yourself credit for the small things, you deserve it! Appreciate all of the good in your life, even when the bad seems overwhelming. And keep your head held high. You'll get through this, we both will. Remember my comments are always open to anyone who needs support <3
Sending love!!!! 

- Salem