Daddy Dear, 

I only wish while I was growing up, I was able to see more clear 

Yet, I had chosen to be selfish

Mistake after mistake, not realizing all the damage I would cause

Time is now left lost, with everything seemingly to be stuck on pause

Your cancer had hit full blown, all I was left to do was watch as you would slowly wither away.

My one wish that is was cured and you were able to actually just stay.

Losing a father is never easy. Especially at such a young age.

These feelings never leave, the feelings of despair, sadness, worthlessness, and sometimes rage 

Time is now left lost, I just wish I was able to see more clear 

To my father's love, wanting to be "Daddys girl" like before 

But little did I know what was really in store. 

                                                 12/12/2019