(I purposely chose a video that I could play in the background mini-player 😁)

When I originally identified and downloaded this song with Kugou music (酷狗), it was deposited on my phone as a 9-minute audio clip of a Chinese kids' show with the song at the end, which maybe made it all the more special given that I had to listen to the show before I could hear the song if it came up on shuffle. Regardless of how it happened, this is one of those songs that just makes me happy when I hear it.

And I have no (or very little) shame in that.

When I was in junior high school, I was traumatized when my best friend told me that he was talking to the popular kids and someone said I was gay, despite the fact that somehow everyone knew I had a mad crush on Sammy Rothman. It made me cry at the time and I think it made me slightly irrationally homophobic for years on down the line. Now, though, I can't help but think how much nicer it might be to be homosexual (or, even better, asexual). I mean, that is as long as people aren't being cruel and judging you, which I get is a big issue. To be fair, the gay people that we can immediately identify as being gay are generally obnoxious and subjectively annoying (sorry, I lived with at least one closet homosexual for multiple years so add that on to the other thing...). But, back to the point, I think the not being sexually attracted to women aspect would be awesome. How much easier would life be, man? Plus, I hear gay people have better clubs and parties.

I'm sure the women here can relate to this, too. As a man, I'm inclined to blame my problems on women because they suck, but when I think about it a little more seriously, I realize that men suck, too. In fact, in many cases, it was a man or men that caused my problems with a woman in the first place. 

Or maybe no one causes my own problems but my self. That's probably more accurate. I know a lot of both men and women that don't suck.

(-- Like, who, you're wife?

-- 😭😭)

And maybe the saltiness is just me being jealous that I was never invited to a gay club (or turnabout, for that matter). I dunno.

But, yeah, guys, the real point is that as long as we're supposed to be staying indoors to ferment again anyway, make sure to keep an open mind and channel that inner alchemist while you have the opportunity, because the sooner you get feelings like this out in the open with yourself, the sooner you can address them. This is one example of my internal workings to help get you started.

✌💚🎶