I've been thinking about what's the most important thing that leads to a fulfilling life. Pondering even and through listen to some videos some things keep coming up.  A happy love life, really great friendship and a full filling job or hobbies/ good finances .these all lead to a happy life.

If you notice What all these things have in common is something that is passion. 

Sometimes I'm thinking , would i want all the money in the world , "hold that thought , HELL YES"  . Alright rephrase , make a lot of money for essential doing a very mundane job that i have no attachment to, and where i have no free time , causing me to be lonely most the time , no time to form meaningful freindship or relationship because I'm busy all the time. Then what's the point of the money. 

I understand the irony here, if you offer me this job now, if take it in a heartbeat, putting my personal feelings on the backburner. Over time though if I'm not passionate about anything I'm doing ,then what's the point. 

I think about this because sometimes i ask myself what am I missing. Recently i have been doing a self audit. It helps to do this to see where is all of life leading to.

Passion about something means that you not just existing , existing is hard , it is struggling. going from one thing you are indifferent 😐 to the next until life runs out. That sounds awful.

If you have things that you are passionate about then you can bear a lot of crap . If you have people you love you can bear a crappy job because you guys are more than just existing. If i don't have anyone to care about  then what's the point of me putting with life struggling. For what? 

I mean i know this all sounds a bit "duh" of course common sense, but i never had to live through this period in my life where I'm really thinking about long term future.Advice only works when your stuck in the situation that it calls for.