This is the ontological nature of the problem.
People lie to themselves: it is my brain, it is because of stress, it is because of my parents, my girlfriend, my job, my boss being a dick;
it is because I got hooked when I was young, because life sucks, because I don't have a gf, because blahblahblah;
------------please if you're going to get into this work, FORGET everything that you were told, including AA models and easy peasy they're both wrong.
all are excuses so that you can be a degenerated addict.
that's all;
Nobody holds a gun to your head mate, literally.
You can be stressed, have a bad relationships with your parents, boss, wife, friends, your life can suck and also you got hooked as a kid on top of all these.
you can STILL CHOOSE TO NOT DO PMO;
who is stopping you? but YOUR OWN PART OF THE EGO WHO WANTS PMO;
all of them, all the reasons, all the logic, all the blahblahblahs, anything that is NOT "I watch porn because I choose to" is a lie, it is a dumb pretext that addicts believe so that they can sin;
>but my brain works against me, my own mind , thoughts, and visual thoughts work against me - you say
yeah no shit that if you watch porn your mind is going to be filled with degeneracy and when you will try to quit it will show you these pics;
sooo? you still CAN CHOOSE TO QUIT IN SPITE OF THAT, IN SPITE OF ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING;
it's about a mindset, literally, this is the solution, a good mindset and resolution, and you're free.
do you understand to the marrow, that the only reason you watch porn, is BECAUSE YOU WANT TO WATCH PORN? this is it;
>b-b-but my mind.
listen dude, it doesn't matter, if your mind tells you this or that, it's you that wants that;
scenario 1:
Your mind shows you some porn clips in your head and tempts you, you drool at that, you get into the thug of war(I should but I shouldn't) and you fail;
scenario 2:
Your mind shows you some porn clips in your head and tempts you, you say "okay, this is normal for that mind to do that because this is its nature to repeat, I have no interest in PMO, 0, why would I want that anyway if it ruined my life? it's just shit painted as gold lol, - and you go for a walk, or get busy"
- In both scenarios, it is the same mind, it's just that...you want pmo or you don't. this is all. the inner resolution.
I'm not going to explain why it's an illusion because you know it; and you want it, this is why you do it;
But I want to underline one more key concept briefly: that PMO and any hardcore addiction is slavery;
you might say yeah no shit, I can see;
but hold on, I am talking about the inner realm only, if you can't be free in your head you're not free;
and try to stay in silence, in the present moment, can you? put some meditation music, breathe in, and stay in the present, after 30 seconds you will notice that your mind takes your attention away..and you're not grounded anymore;
out of all these thoughts, the PMO thoughts are the most deep-rooted, and the most powerful; Look at how they drag you with them.
>x pornstar, with her "angelic" sexy xxx **drolling** body, wow, omg so sexi.......
>y pornstar who is skinny and a dirty girl and you got a crush on her.....
and blahhhblahhblahh, all this degeneracy, you see it? you are NOT FREE. because of these. and you engage in these thoughts BECAUSE YOU WANT THAT.
and it further develops into this addiction because the nature of PMO, but you only do this BECAUSE YOU WANT TO. that's all.
you might as well say:
'ah fuck off brain, I'm not engaging in all this degeneracy, yeah you can think of that I'm not going to suppress my thoughts, but I won't give attention to them because they're demonical in nature, I choose God, and spirit, over demonic materialistic pleasure set by satan to entrap my consciousness into the lower realms"
satanists and sinners set for these lower pleasures. Sinning keeps you in suffering. You know it.
all that sobriety is is letting all the suffering behind. Look at the inner game, the real work is WITHIN.
understand that it's slavery because your attention is coerced, you are the field of awareness, basically, (along with the body). but the awareness comes first. and as above so below, you renounce porn, you acknowledge its demonical addictive slavery nature, and you just renounce it
-all it did was fuck up my life, I don't need that anyway;
In fact it is 3 prisons:
1) you get addicted, you waste time, get nothing - for years, until you fuck up your life with it and want to quit
2) You try to quit for many years and keep failing because the quit-addiction models are written by addicts who lie to themselves; AA people still believe that once an addict always an addict and it's not you but your brain, you're the slave of the drug, but you're powerless - so much bullshit
3) You finally put all the resources to quit and it requires time, it's going to require at least 6 months, and there are powerful withdrawals and flatlines and your mind and inner temple will feel bad..no harmony.
let's say that you did PMO for 10 years, you struggled to quit for 3 and you're quiting in 1 year - that's 14 years spent in slavery; Whereas a person who never got into this is free and has been enjoing his life since the beginning;
so please reclaim your life, the first 3 months seem to be the hardest, it isn't that much and they're going to pass anyway;
