You smile at me with your eyes, I smile at you with your eyes. We hold hands. You talk to me like nothing happened. You pull my ears, you advise me, you show me things that are difficult for me to see. The world is simpler when I'm with you. I remember and witness again your lucidity, your tenderness. There are people who are always on your side, even if you are not even with yourself. You are that unconditionality, you are that loyalty. I learn. You clarify the film for me, we start to remember together. We travel with our imagination, we are in Madrid. I tell you what I think and you tell me that you have also been thinking the same thing. You talk to me about my paternity, about my sentimentality. You give me what you know naturally, without any effort. We caress our hands. You highlight my virtues or rather remind me of them. You smile at me, and you are more alive than me. You understand me, you take care of me, you mark the things I should work on. This does not end here, you tell me with total naturalness and security. You don't feel compassion for yourself, you don't have anger, you don't have fear. You are at peace, whole. You become what you have always been to me, a teacher without wanting to be a teacher. I'm leaving your room, your apartment. I'm going with you, I'm taking you with me. And I don't stop talking to you all day. I take out a book of yours and read your poems. I imagine you writing it. I imagine you reading. "Poetry for me was never a competition for anything" you tell me. I want to see you tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and every day, just like when we worked together writing scripts for TV.
Did I tell you that I repeat your idioms with my students at the University? And we laugh again.
And you tell me, this does not end here. And I tell you I know. And you explain complex things to me again in a simple way. You are my confidant again. And you are always on my side even though I myself am not sometimes. We caress our hands. We say goodbye, although we know that there is no farewell between us. Then I'm at home and I remember the nickname you gave me, and it was funny and we laughed, at that ridiculous name, and you're here and I'm with you. And we love each other. And you are my privilege. Today when I saw you, you gave me your heart, I will work all my life to deserve it.