My mother had given me an awful viand yesterday for my supposed breakfast and lunch. She didn't cooked it well enough plus it doesn't have a complete ingredients plus it smelled terrible for me.

The soup tasted bitter because she didn't washed the fish liver well. So I wasn't able to eat even the soup and the vegetables in it and I lost appetite because of that.

I went furious because here I am struggling with my appetite then I would get a bitter food that I can't eat, it smelled fish, and it made me upset. I lost the appetite to even eat my supper.

My mother then gave me some bread without nothing in it and some cold water in my thermos. This is why I just pre-order those convenience food in bowls when I am at my dialysis which I can eat if there are issues like this.

Too bad for me that my parents are just not a good cook and my mother seems to be forgetting how to prepare dishes that she was making before. Now she is just offering me that instant noodle dish and a boiled egg which I refused to have because I am upset and I am also felt tied of eating the same foods over and over again.

Well I appreciate my mother's care and support even though she is not obligated to do things for me. I know that she is old and will make mistakes. It is just it makes me feel upset because of these kinds of situations where I am left with less options to choose from.

But I am keeping my spirits up and trying not to get affected by a seemingly negligible issue which for me is a very big one. Soon I will not get this problem anymore because I could get what I want and when I want it because of cryptos.