It is hard for me to manage my pain issues right now because it had been taking too much time and it is like waiting for a bus that will never come.
I am also faced with a lot of financial burden because of the cost of the medicines that I take everyday. The more food that I eat the more expensive it gets because I have to take my phosphate binder with my meals.
That is why I would just limit my food intake and spacing them far in-between. I also have to keep in mind that I do have a strict diet to follow otherwise I would go back to what I was dodging which is the return of my terrible pain issues.
I had gone a great mile with my efforts to improve my well-being and I do not want to let it all drop which is why I keep on praying that I could sustain my medical needs until my body itself gives-up.
I am also have a mixed feeling with my body because it doesn't want to basically raise the white flag of submission. It is a tough cookie indeed as evidenced by my unusual longevity. It could either be a good thing or a bad thing whoever wants to look at it with their ow perspective.
But for me it could just be a curse because of the misery that I am experiencing in a daily basis. I am still struggling and it is hard for my condition with myriads of complications that is both hard for the body and also for the pockets.
For myself with a small number of years to live it is painfully hard to wait for a greater improvement because it is taking too long and it also makes me get bankrupt as days passes by. But I know that I have to do the right things in order for me to achieve what I wanted and at least I am improving but I am still not out of the clear yet so I have to pray more that God would really save me from these things that bothers me more than 2/3 of my lifetime already.
