DANCING WITH A DISLOCATED KNEE or YOUR LIFE IS A FINELY BALANCED WORK OF ART or THE MELANCHOLY OF AN AGING DANCER or LIFE, INNIT 🖤


Dancing is my greatest and oldest love... Here is me mucking about in my kitchen last night to my new favourite tune, Solid Gold by Hanni El Khatib.

I dislocated my knee about 15 months ago and that has significantly changed how I am able to dance, in that I no longer perform (I dislocated it on stage, in the midst of a performance) and I have to be careful not to redislocate it, so some of the gymnastics stuff I used to do has become less vivid, less a part of my dancing and I suppose because I'm not performing, it takes away an element of perfectionism, which is a double edged sword. I am now more curvy and less 'hard body' for example, which I'm fine with btw .

I have found this change quite hard in the last year but ultimately have accepted it. Yes, of course I could continue to perform. I could put lots of energy and time into strengthening the muscles around my knee and in general become superfit to stop my body, as it ages getting injured from the demands of performance dancing, but...and here is the but... Dance is my oldest and greatest love, yes but performance never was. That was just a bi product of me being good at summat I loved. But I'm not a natural fitness freak. I don't do the gym or 'training' (not to the degree I'd need to) and my life is a finely balanced piece of art. Dance has it's place but is not and cannot be the dominant aspect. I am a single mother. I hold down a full time job (soon to be re training as a teacher). I have other art forms I love too, writing, photography, digital art, more recently audio art and who knows what else is round the corner. So basically, I have to accept that I'm not gonna be a performance dancer anymore if I want my life to maintain that balance. And that the dancing I do from here on in may well never be as good, in my mind as it once was but fuck I can still enjoy it and have fun and actually... I just got a brand new hula hoop, so maybe it's time for this old dog to pick up on some of her old tricks... YASSSS... Below is my last piece of hoop dance from a couple of months ago... let's see where I can take it this year...

 

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(S)llew la Wulf
(S)llew la Wulf

Yet another artist screaming (colourfully) into the void. I like to dance. I write. I do self portraiture and i draw... I cover topics ranging from racial bias to female sexuality to capitalism to rape culture and of course, love ❤️


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