Every little disappointment in life might be catching up with our thoughts and somehow we want to find a way to release it.
Some people find solace by taking drugs and alcohol. Some even binge watch on their favorite shows, stress eating, meaningless sexual relationship and etc. All because we want to fill the hole inside us. One thing is for sure, we all want to ESCAPE Reality, when reality seems too painful to bear. I found a way to surrender the burden of reality. Something I shunned upon many years back. Guess what it is. No, come on, it's not drugs but a good and honest cry in a dark room, alone. I realized it does not make you a lesser man to let those tears fall down. Every once in a while it feels good to have a good cry. And after wiping the tears and taking a deep breath, we can feel anew and ready to take on another of life's challenges. Releasing all the pain thru tears might be the only way to let go of everything we cannot control.
I promised myself to never let a single tear fall and for many years I was proud to have held all the tears inside. Eventually all it ever did was hide the pain and yet it wasn't totally gone. It was just like a demon cast into the unfathomable depths, lurking and waiting to one day rise again.
With the tears drying up, I hope it get's better. But we really never know and that's the beauty of it. Again, to men reading this. it's not going to make us less of a man to cry our heart out when everything is falling down.