Yeah...that's the questions. I got Steam, I got Uplay, Origin, I got an XBOX-One with 12.99€ monthly subscription. But this is not enough.
'Cause I also got Epic - I regularly download the free games they give on a weekly basis -, and I also have a GOG Galaxy account, that says my cross-platform collection counts about 650 titles.
I grew up with PCs since I was 10 (1995) an the first Doom was the craziest s**t you can have. I remember DOS environment and all the versions of MS Windows from 3.1 to 10.
This is a kid dream and the ultimate results of a many videogames bundle purchases. So what? What is the problem? I am an elder millennial with a lot of electronic toys.
As we often say in Italy:
Dio da il pane a chi non ha i denti
- i.e. God gives the bread to the ones that have no teeth.
During this quarantine, I play roughly 2-3 hours a week. That's a very little amount of time, related to the fact that I stay at home all the time.
Why don't you play videogames with your friends? It is more engaging than playing solo.
This, perhaps, can be true. Gaming is like sex: it is better if you are not alone. Ok... it can be, but I am not completely convinced. No one of my actual friends is addicted to online-gaming, neither am I. I hate PVP, Battle Royal and so on. And I don't want to play with anyone younger than my brother (born in 1991).
The last game I was pretty much involved by was Mass Effect, the original trilogy, with Commander Shepard and his cool-a* alien friends. Single player, decent screenplay, deep character customization, spectacular crew, some kind of freedom in making choices, continuity among the chapters and so on. That was a pretty amazing sci-fi RPG.
I am talking about 2012. Eight years are passed and I never found that joy again in any title I have played. Mass Effect Andromeda has been just disappointing.
I'm not here to complain about videogames industry and bla-bla-bla. It is more personal: I usually have an activity that I enjoy a lot, now I don't and I am unable to enjoy again gaming, no matter what Triple-A comes out.
Yeah, that's the problem. How did I face this problem? Is this a real problem? Maybe not. For me - and I speak only for myself - the matter is related to the time of my life. Every time I download and play a new game, after ten minutes, I become not so proud of myself.
There is something to learn, there is an ability to nurture. Now I am here playing this thing, while I could read a book, enrich my blogs, study something new, draw something, paint something, become a better programmer, prepare a lesson for my student, get in a better shape. There is something to do and it is not on that screen or in that controller. Every time a sit down playing something, I feel a complete lack of sense of purpose.
Gaming is a great thing. It involves creative and artistic processes. It unifies distant people and I don't want to demonize it at all. But, probably, It has been a very long juvenile crush.
It's not you Babe, It's me!
or, in this case, referred to me:
Do not hate the game, hate the player.
Someone out there is in the same situation? Can you relate to this? Let me know in the comments. I am genuinely interested.
to be continued...
Originaly posted on Minds.
