Aloha, I am chantel and back with more of my deep heart writing. Hope you all will enjoy.

Hurting being so distant from family

Hurts because I am being talked about when I have not been around for 3 years now

Hurting because I'm a mother now and I don't want my son to know my family!

Hurting because I fear that my son will not know his great grandmother back in hawai'i, due to our current circumstances and situation 

Hurting because the fear of ever losing my love, due to current and past health conditions 

What hurts is all my physical health problems that affect me every day, and tries to keep me down in every way

What hurts is I fear that my son is one day going to feel what hurt is, and I am glad to be his mommy and also one of the many people that will be there to help him when he hurts. I am going to sit or stand and comfort him when the time does come and my son feels true hurt. I will hold my son and tell him that everything is going to be okay and I will be by his side if ever he needs me. I will always be there for my son and when I am not I will always be looking out for him.

So many people hold hurts and pains inside, and a lot of us don't have anyone to talk to. I had to see a therapist back in hawai'i and a little while being here in pennsylvania, so I had someone to talk to and open up to , but even then I never really was open to the therapist. I was more open with going to the graveyard and talking with my papa and telling him my hurts and pains. But my point is there are so many out there that are afraid of speaking out because they are to afraid that there voice will not matter. Well I am here to tell you that your voice does matter and needs to be heard. Do what I do and write, or sing. You don't have to read or post what you write to anyone, but just get it out of your system, and remember you are someone special and your voice does matter! 

Stay tuned for more posts to come

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